Me and bondage

Hello,

now I will write something about bondage or I should better say selfbondage. Bondage is another important thing for me together with pain. In most cases I combine those two in most of my sessions. My first bondage experience was actually same as pain one, because I was using rope for inflicting pain to my legs back then. Anyway the most important bondage period I had when I was 12 years old. I always love bondage, but during this time I was totally obssesed with selfbondage.

It started slowly by tied up legs together, anckles, knees and thighs. After that I found out that I have a rope fetish, I tied my whole body in ropes, chest and tummy, rop thru my pussy but it still wasnt really strict or painfull and still with hands free.

After that I wanted to be a little bit more harsh on myself, so my bondage became more tight, I tied myself to door, bed or table but still with my hands free so I can do painfull stuff to myself during bondage. Big change came when I dared to tie my hands.

First just to try the feeling with rope and easy to untie. When I found out that I like it, I bough some chains and paddlocks and started to experimenting with strict selfbondage. I tried keys in icecubes, on the other end of long string or I left key far away in my house and I had to crawl for it. It was a great sensation beeing helpless and knowing that I cant untie myself until I got key but my bondage was still too plain. Tied legs, hands and thats it.

I started to tie myself in more complex bondage. Especially legs, every leg somewhat different, or I tied them in the air while lying on the ground. I started to tie myself really hard, so the bondage actually hurts. I was trying a full body bondage, including upper body, my knee to chest and other knee in air, positions I had a really hard time to crawl, my elbows tied together. And ye, I was in love with bondage, anyway after a while I got out of ideas, and it started to be same over again.

When I was about 14 or 15 I oriented myself more towards pain, and I used bondage strictly to hold myself in position, to add a helpless feeling to my torture. But when I was 16 years old I fell in love with hardtied, and general the most intense bondage or suspension. I wanted to try it so badly, I wanted to put my body in those tests and see how it will feel.

So I started to test, how bad is the pain when you are hanging in the air suspended by rope. It wasnt so painfull to my surprise so I tried my first season. Semi suspension by legs. I sat on the chair, tied my legs up in the air to wall bars and then put the chair away. I ended up lying on my back with my butt in the air. The bondage on my anckles was intense and I could feel how the rope is tightening into my skin. I was like in trance, my feet where blue after while, ofcourse because my knobs were bad ones for suspension and they tightened too much. So I untied myself and I knew that I want more.

Doing suspension in my room is very complicated, because I can tie myself only by wall. I did couple of more tests there, mainly learning new suspension knobs so they dont tighten up. I also searched what body parts should be tied and what not. I was ready, totally wanted to be freely in the air able to swing here and there without any wall touching my body. The only room in my house where I could did that was garage. It was horrible waiting for opportunity when my parents will go away for long enough. But it came one day.

First thing I planned to try was classic suspension by legs, chest and hips. I wanted to have hands free until I master that. I did it exactly how I wanted, was lying on garden table and when I was tied up I just slipped down. I was hanging there it could be few minutes, then the pressure on my chest started to be unbearable. It was great sensation, better then I expected, tho I had bruises on my chest for a week after.

My experimenting with suspension was slow, because I could only try that when I was home alone for a long time.I tried lot of positions, mastered how and what parts I should tied so I dont have bad bruises from that again. Sometimes I have ofcourse, but only after some really long and hard play. I found out that when I hang upside down by my legs I got sick easily, so I can do this position only couple of minutes, but that is more or less general for every suspension. I think that this is the top of selfbondage for me, atleast for now.

When I was sure with what Im doing, I started to tie my hands during suspension. It was like year ago, so I was practicing a lot. I didnt try to use chain and key, because I dont think that it is needed. Suspension isnt about strict bondage in my opinion. The most intense thing I did till now was last summer, when I tied myself by one anckle in the air, and to my other anckle I tied my hands. Before I tied my hands I turned on vibrator in my pussy and well.. it was the best orgasm in my whole life. I honestly never came so hard and it was really intense. Even tho that it was wonderfull feeling, I didnt dare to do it again since then. Dont know why, but Im a little bit scared, not because of something can happen to me, I know it cant, I trust myself in bondage, but it was just too intense for my body I guess. Im afraid that I will let go my feelings and I wouldnt be able to control myself.

That would be all about my bondage adventures :) in next post I will write about what get my panties soaked wet.