Hello,
this is first post of many in which I will focus on single things I actualized. I will try to be as detailed as possible but if you miss some information you are interested in, just leave me a comment and I will asnwer it for you. Today Im gonna write about dare that I created for web getdare.com, it involves nettles and lot of pain I hope, so here we go.
I wanted to do this dare yesterday but when I started to thing about it I kind of chickened out. I wanted to be sure that I will make myself to do it, so yesterday evening I had some long and intense teasing session. I woke up this morning really wet, I gave myself another edge and then I pulled my soaked panties back on. I decided that I will keep them for whole day.
After lunch I went to bathroom to shave myself because this dare involve some pussy play and I wasnt really smooth down there. When I did I was little mad at myself, because I actually made my skin more sensitive and that wasnt really desirable today, but I do stupid things when Im horny. I then changed into my sport shorts and shirt, took of my bra and keep on my sleeping panties. I took two clothepins, put them on my nipples and I was ready for a ride.
I setup 15 minutes on my phone and headed to the woods not so far from my house. I was really excited by this point. I was doing my best to keep high speed, even when I entered the woods. It was really a hot and sunny day today so I was sweating everywhere after a while. When my mobile started to bleep I was already exhausted after that 15 minutes sprint. I took a quick break and then I slowly continued looking for some nettles. My heart was beating so fast, but Im not sure if it was because of bike ride or excitement. I slowly rode deeper in the forest and I couldnt found anything, my nipples started to hurt when I slowed down and I was getting even more nervous.
I dont know for how long I was searching, but finally when I arrived on small logged area I found some big and fresh nettles there. I got off the bike, quickly checked if Im alone there and then I took of those clothepins. It was quite painfull but nothing I wouldnt expect, I massaged them a little, let the pain fade out. Then I pulled my shorts and panties to my knees, they were even more wet then before. It took me just few seconds to edge and big selfcontrol to stop masturbating. I pulled my cloth back and procced to next part.
When I found some young and really fresh nettles, those I thought will sting most, I remembered that I wanted to take some gloves with me. Well because Im stupid I had to solve the situation on place, so I again looked around to make sure Im alone there, and then I took off my shirt and use it as gloves. First of all I picked really big leaf and with holded breath I put them on my nipple. It wasnt first time for me to sting my nipples with nettles, but this time I was really sore. When nettle touched my skin it wasnt so bad, but when I squeezed it and put clothepin on it started to sting pretty bad. I quickly do the same with my second nipple.
After few moment my nipples where really itchy it was like thousand needles against my skin. I calmed down a little and then I collected some more nettles. I made a few smaller pieces and pulled my panties to my knees again, then I stuffed all the collected nettles in my panties. There was lot of green in there and it looked really painful. I started to fear, totally forgot about some pain on nipples. I pulled my panties about half way on my thighs and when I did that I touched some of the nettles with my skin. I stopped and started to masturbate again, I didnt want to edge just to make myself hornier. I was repeating to myself that If I dont pull my panties on I dont get to cum today. When I felt I can do it, I took a deep breath and quickly pulled my panties on.
It was horrible. Nettles attacked my exposed pussy like small pieces of glass but honestly, it wasnt so bad, I was preparing myself for more pain. The bad thing was that it sting nonstop, together with my nipples, so I will be in pain for more then 15 minutes. I pulled my shorts back on, picked up my sweaty and dirty shirt from ground and went to my bike. While walking the pain started to be more intense, nettles started to sting on every part of my crotch. My nipples where already burning and my pussy started slowly too. I knew that it will me much worse after few minutes judging by my previous experience with nettles.
I picked up my bike but when I sat on it I squeaked in pain. That was really a bad idea and I wasnt quite prepared for another, and much worse stinging. I was standing there for few moments with my pussy and nipples on fire, then I said to myself that I should go, or it will be unbearable until I come back home. I started to move, but without sitting. It didnt work, my legs were sore after few minutes and I was moving really slowly. Itching of my private parts transformed into painfull burning and I knew I had to clench my teeths and do it.
I sat on my bike and started to pedal. The pain get even more intense then before, I didnt feel stings anymore, just burning, more and more intense burning. I was moving really fast, doing my best, now the only pain I felt was on my pussy, my nipples was fine. It was like flame that starts in my crotch and move to my thighs and tummy, it started to feel really bad. When I left the forest and was like in trance. I was focusing just on the road to pedal as fast as I can and on this burning. I thought that it will stop to hurt after a while but I was wrong, it was still like flame in my panties and still so intense. I was getting really angry on myself, because it was really bad, I didnt feel my pussy at all sitting on my bike and from time to time when some nettle touched my clit I felt that.
I was finally home. I left my bike behind doors and ran to bathroom, took my shorts and shirt off. I went in bathtube on my knees and quickly pulled my panties off. Some nettles felt down burning my legs, but some stayed on my skin, I took of those ones with my bare hands. My crotch was red and my skin was covered with small pimples.There were also a lot of those little green balls everywhere, seeds or whatever that is, I tried to sweep them of my pussy with hand but when I touched it I almost cried out by another burning wave. After that I took of my clothepins and leaves there. It took couple of seconds and my nipples started to burn really badly. I instinctively started to rub my pussy and even tho it was still on fire it felt good.
It took me just few moments and I was cumming. The orgasm was strange, first of all I stopped feeling any pain and I felt my usual orgasm how I know it, but then after a while the burning came back and mixed with pleasure feelings. It was really a something new but it wasnt as much pleasurable as my other painfull orgasms.
When the orgasm was away everything started to hurt more, as usual. I found out that I burned my both legs with those nettles quite badly when I was cumming and that wasnt really want I wanted in the summer.
Luckely my skin on legs is not so sensitive so they are just a little bit red because I scratch them all the time, I hope it will be fine tommorow. My nipples are more or less ok too by now, again they are itchy a little so I have to scratch my boobs all the time, and its pretty weird. My pussy is still red and when I try to scratch my croth it hurts, so I have to hold it. I feel like having some disease right now. I hope that tommorow it will be better and I will be looking back on this idea with smile, but at the moment I have to say that I hate nettles !
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Me any my fetish
Hello,
I was thinking about what exactly fetish is, and what should I include here and what not. Fetish is some item or situation that is not really linked with normal sexuality, for example you cant have a cock fetish. Atleast that is how I understand it. In this post I will make a list of everything that makes me wet instantly, in every situation and every mood, so not strictly fetish.
Feet and legs. I think that I cat say that I have a footfetish. I like skinny legs, no muscles, no fat.
Plain and innocent cloth. I enjoy having this on myself when I play, I feel like too vurnerable then. Basic and cheap white underwear, cheap shirt without sleeves, and plain white miniskirt, uhm that is the most sexy cloth in my opinion. Same goes for guys, I like them in plain cloth aswell.
Panties. I have really a huge panties fetish, but I dont like all of them. I can spend hours in a shop searching for panties that turns me on, and Im really horny wearing those. I dont know why I like some and not others, its just very spontaneus.
Small cloth. This is something I dont use in real life, but I have some smaller cloth then my size and I use it during play sometimes. I guess that the fact it enlace my body is turn on for me, like a cheap variant of latex cloth. I dont have enough money to buy latex, but I would like to try it someday.
Rope. One touch is enough for wetting my panties, I dont even have to be tied up, just feel rope on my skin.
Fear. It is actually turn on for me, watching horror movie or be alone at night naked outside.
Pain. Ofcourse.
Degradation.When I have more time to play I always fantasy about situation which Im into and it is always the same. Im kidnapped or something like that by someone and they force me to do things, rape me, torture me. The main point is that I fantasy about being holded against my will. Even tho I like what I do to myself, I fantasy about how I dont like it and someone is doing something horrible to me. This fantasy is big turn on to me.
Bare feet. It goes together with degradation and foot fetish. When I have more time for myself and I do bdsm for more then one day, Im always without shoes.
Orgasm denial and teasing. I thinkg this speakes for itself. Again this is important for longer play, because when Im cumming too much I lost my urge as my pussy gets sensitive, so Im always trying to hold myself horny.
Forced orgasm. Exactly the opposite. Being in bondage for three hours with dildo inside my pussy and vibe egg on my clit, ye... after sixth orgasm I beg myself to never try it again, but I do anyways. Downside of this is that I dont get horny for 3-4 days after that, so I use it only when I have a really kinky mood for it, or when I know I will dont have much time in upcoming days.
Physical effort. I dont know if its my fetish, someone told me in past that its a natural human effect, but anyway. When I do something really hard, workout, hard bondage pose or anything that tests endurance of my muscles, I get really horny. That is the reason I like to workout and it was probably reason for my earlier orgasms as child.
Sweat. I like it on my body, after a good bdsm seasson or after workout. Again, huge turn on, especialy during summer. I must try somewhen to be dirt and sweat for a long time, god this fantasy drives me crazy.
And I believe this is it.. ofcourse there are more and more things that turn me on, but they are not so powerful. As I said, just thinking about these things I wrote about adn my pussy is throbbing. I guess I will go for private play now.
I was thinking about what exactly fetish is, and what should I include here and what not. Fetish is some item or situation that is not really linked with normal sexuality, for example you cant have a cock fetish. Atleast that is how I understand it. In this post I will make a list of everything that makes me wet instantly, in every situation and every mood, so not strictly fetish.
Feet and legs. I think that I cat say that I have a footfetish. I like skinny legs, no muscles, no fat.
Plain and innocent cloth. I enjoy having this on myself when I play, I feel like too vurnerable then. Basic and cheap white underwear, cheap shirt without sleeves, and plain white miniskirt, uhm that is the most sexy cloth in my opinion. Same goes for guys, I like them in plain cloth aswell.
Panties. I have really a huge panties fetish, but I dont like all of them. I can spend hours in a shop searching for panties that turns me on, and Im really horny wearing those. I dont know why I like some and not others, its just very spontaneus.
Small cloth. This is something I dont use in real life, but I have some smaller cloth then my size and I use it during play sometimes. I guess that the fact it enlace my body is turn on for me, like a cheap variant of latex cloth. I dont have enough money to buy latex, but I would like to try it someday.
Rope. One touch is enough for wetting my panties, I dont even have to be tied up, just feel rope on my skin.
Fear. It is actually turn on for me, watching horror movie or be alone at night naked outside.
Pain. Ofcourse.
Degradation.When I have more time to play I always fantasy about situation which Im into and it is always the same. Im kidnapped or something like that by someone and they force me to do things, rape me, torture me. The main point is that I fantasy about being holded against my will. Even tho I like what I do to myself, I fantasy about how I dont like it and someone is doing something horrible to me. This fantasy is big turn on to me.
Bare feet. It goes together with degradation and foot fetish. When I have more time for myself and I do bdsm for more then one day, Im always without shoes.
Orgasm denial and teasing. I thinkg this speakes for itself. Again this is important for longer play, because when Im cumming too much I lost my urge as my pussy gets sensitive, so Im always trying to hold myself horny.
Forced orgasm. Exactly the opposite. Being in bondage for three hours with dildo inside my pussy and vibe egg on my clit, ye... after sixth orgasm I beg myself to never try it again, but I do anyways. Downside of this is that I dont get horny for 3-4 days after that, so I use it only when I have a really kinky mood for it, or when I know I will dont have much time in upcoming days.
Physical effort. I dont know if its my fetish, someone told me in past that its a natural human effect, but anyway. When I do something really hard, workout, hard bondage pose or anything that tests endurance of my muscles, I get really horny. That is the reason I like to workout and it was probably reason for my earlier orgasms as child.
Sweat. I like it on my body, after a good bdsm seasson or after workout. Again, huge turn on, especialy during summer. I must try somewhen to be dirt and sweat for a long time, god this fantasy drives me crazy.
And I believe this is it.. ofcourse there are more and more things that turn me on, but they are not so powerful. As I said, just thinking about these things I wrote about adn my pussy is throbbing. I guess I will go for private play now.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Me and bondage
Hello,
now I will write something about bondage or I should better say selfbondage. Bondage is another important thing for me together with pain. In most cases I combine those two in most of my sessions. My first bondage experience was actually same as pain one, because I was using rope for inflicting pain to my legs back then. Anyway the most important bondage period I had when I was 12 years old. I always love bondage, but during this time I was totally obssesed with selfbondage.
It started slowly by tied up legs together, anckles, knees and thighs. After that I found out that I have a rope fetish, I tied my whole body in ropes, chest and tummy, rop thru my pussy but it still wasnt really strict or painfull and still with hands free.
After that I wanted to be a little bit more harsh on myself, so my bondage became more tight, I tied myself to door, bed or table but still with my hands free so I can do painfull stuff to myself during bondage. Big change came when I dared to tie my hands.
First just to try the feeling with rope and easy to untie. When I found out that I like it, I bough some chains and paddlocks and started to experimenting with strict selfbondage. I tried keys in icecubes, on the other end of long string or I left key far away in my house and I had to crawl for it. It was a great sensation beeing helpless and knowing that I cant untie myself until I got key but my bondage was still too plain. Tied legs, hands and thats it.
I started to tie myself in more complex bondage. Especially legs, every leg somewhat different, or I tied them in the air while lying on the ground. I started to tie myself really hard, so the bondage actually hurts. I was trying a full body bondage, including upper body, my knee to chest and other knee in air, positions I had a really hard time to crawl, my elbows tied together. And ye, I was in love with bondage, anyway after a while I got out of ideas, and it started to be same over again.
When I was about 14 or 15 I oriented myself more towards pain, and I used bondage strictly to hold myself in position, to add a helpless feeling to my torture. But when I was 16 years old I fell in love with hardtied, and general the most intense bondage or suspension. I wanted to try it so badly, I wanted to put my body in those tests and see how it will feel.
So I started to test, how bad is the pain when you are hanging in the air suspended by rope. It wasnt so painfull to my surprise so I tried my first season. Semi suspension by legs. I sat on the chair, tied my legs up in the air to wall bars and then put the chair away. I ended up lying on my back with my butt in the air. The bondage on my anckles was intense and I could feel how the rope is tightening into my skin. I was like in trance, my feet where blue after while, ofcourse because my knobs were bad ones for suspension and they tightened too much. So I untied myself and I knew that I want more.
Doing suspension in my room is very complicated, because I can tie myself only by wall. I did couple of more tests there, mainly learning new suspension knobs so they dont tighten up. I also searched what body parts should be tied and what not. I was ready, totally wanted to be freely in the air able to swing here and there without any wall touching my body. The only room in my house where I could did that was garage. It was horrible waiting for opportunity when my parents will go away for long enough. But it came one day.
First thing I planned to try was classic suspension by legs, chest and hips. I wanted to have hands free until I master that. I did it exactly how I wanted, was lying on garden table and when I was tied up I just slipped down. I was hanging there it could be few minutes, then the pressure on my chest started to be unbearable. It was great sensation, better then I expected, tho I had bruises on my chest for a week after.
My experimenting with suspension was slow, because I could only try that when I was home alone for a long time.I tried lot of positions, mastered how and what parts I should tied so I dont have bad bruises from that again. Sometimes I have ofcourse, but only after some really long and hard play. I found out that when I hang upside down by my legs I got sick easily, so I can do this position only couple of minutes, but that is more or less general for every suspension. I think that this is the top of selfbondage for me, atleast for now.
When I was sure with what Im doing, I started to tie my hands during suspension. It was like year ago, so I was practicing a lot. I didnt try to use chain and key, because I dont think that it is needed. Suspension isnt about strict bondage in my opinion. The most intense thing I did till now was last summer, when I tied myself by one anckle in the air, and to my other anckle I tied my hands. Before I tied my hands I turned on vibrator in my pussy and well.. it was the best orgasm in my whole life. I honestly never came so hard and it was really intense. Even tho that it was wonderfull feeling, I didnt dare to do it again since then. Dont know why, but Im a little bit scared, not because of something can happen to me, I know it cant, I trust myself in bondage, but it was just too intense for my body I guess. Im afraid that I will let go my feelings and I wouldnt be able to control myself.
That would be all about my bondage adventures :) in next post I will write about what get my panties soaked wet.
now I will write something about bondage or I should better say selfbondage. Bondage is another important thing for me together with pain. In most cases I combine those two in most of my sessions. My first bondage experience was actually same as pain one, because I was using rope for inflicting pain to my legs back then. Anyway the most important bondage period I had when I was 12 years old. I always love bondage, but during this time I was totally obssesed with selfbondage.
It started slowly by tied up legs together, anckles, knees and thighs. After that I found out that I have a rope fetish, I tied my whole body in ropes, chest and tummy, rop thru my pussy but it still wasnt really strict or painfull and still with hands free.
After that I wanted to be a little bit more harsh on myself, so my bondage became more tight, I tied myself to door, bed or table but still with my hands free so I can do painfull stuff to myself during bondage. Big change came when I dared to tie my hands.
First just to try the feeling with rope and easy to untie. When I found out that I like it, I bough some chains and paddlocks and started to experimenting with strict selfbondage. I tried keys in icecubes, on the other end of long string or I left key far away in my house and I had to crawl for it. It was a great sensation beeing helpless and knowing that I cant untie myself until I got key but my bondage was still too plain. Tied legs, hands and thats it.
I started to tie myself in more complex bondage. Especially legs, every leg somewhat different, or I tied them in the air while lying on the ground. I started to tie myself really hard, so the bondage actually hurts. I was trying a full body bondage, including upper body, my knee to chest and other knee in air, positions I had a really hard time to crawl, my elbows tied together. And ye, I was in love with bondage, anyway after a while I got out of ideas, and it started to be same over again.
When I was about 14 or 15 I oriented myself more towards pain, and I used bondage strictly to hold myself in position, to add a helpless feeling to my torture. But when I was 16 years old I fell in love with hardtied, and general the most intense bondage or suspension. I wanted to try it so badly, I wanted to put my body in those tests and see how it will feel.
So I started to test, how bad is the pain when you are hanging in the air suspended by rope. It wasnt so painfull to my surprise so I tried my first season. Semi suspension by legs. I sat on the chair, tied my legs up in the air to wall bars and then put the chair away. I ended up lying on my back with my butt in the air. The bondage on my anckles was intense and I could feel how the rope is tightening into my skin. I was like in trance, my feet where blue after while, ofcourse because my knobs were bad ones for suspension and they tightened too much. So I untied myself and I knew that I want more.
Doing suspension in my room is very complicated, because I can tie myself only by wall. I did couple of more tests there, mainly learning new suspension knobs so they dont tighten up. I also searched what body parts should be tied and what not. I was ready, totally wanted to be freely in the air able to swing here and there without any wall touching my body. The only room in my house where I could did that was garage. It was horrible waiting for opportunity when my parents will go away for long enough. But it came one day.
First thing I planned to try was classic suspension by legs, chest and hips. I wanted to have hands free until I master that. I did it exactly how I wanted, was lying on garden table and when I was tied up I just slipped down. I was hanging there it could be few minutes, then the pressure on my chest started to be unbearable. It was great sensation, better then I expected, tho I had bruises on my chest for a week after.
My experimenting with suspension was slow, because I could only try that when I was home alone for a long time.I tried lot of positions, mastered how and what parts I should tied so I dont have bad bruises from that again. Sometimes I have ofcourse, but only after some really long and hard play. I found out that when I hang upside down by my legs I got sick easily, so I can do this position only couple of minutes, but that is more or less general for every suspension. I think that this is the top of selfbondage for me, atleast for now.
When I was sure with what Im doing, I started to tie my hands during suspension. It was like year ago, so I was practicing a lot. I didnt try to use chain and key, because I dont think that it is needed. Suspension isnt about strict bondage in my opinion. The most intense thing I did till now was last summer, when I tied myself by one anckle in the air, and to my other anckle I tied my hands. Before I tied my hands I turned on vibrator in my pussy and well.. it was the best orgasm in my whole life. I honestly never came so hard and it was really intense. Even tho that it was wonderfull feeling, I didnt dare to do it again since then. Dont know why, but Im a little bit scared, not because of something can happen to me, I know it cant, I trust myself in bondage, but it was just too intense for my body I guess. Im afraid that I will let go my feelings and I wouldnt be able to control myself.
That would be all about my bondage adventures :) in next post I will write about what get my panties soaked wet.
Me and pain
Hello,
I will write about pain today, the basic and my most favorite bdsm tool.
Pain was my very first kink, first thing I tried and first thing I dreamed about. It all started when I was really young, somewhere between my 7-8 year. I remember that I dreamed about some strange rollecoaster that moves really slowly and there are multiple tortures devices on the way. My favorite was the one that inflicts pain into my legs. I dont know if I have borned with this kink already but my legs are still my favorite part to torture.
I started really slowly back then, with some rubberbands around my anckles, rope around my legs nothing with bondage tho, the pain was important to me. Its hard for me to remember all I tried as its really a long time ago, but what I remember is my first orgasm. it was about when I was 9 years old. I tied my leg in the air to a chair and then did pushups. I holded my free leg on my tied one so the thighs were closely touching and after a while I felt some great feeling. I didnt know what it was but after a while of enjoying this sensation I reached the top of it, felt great pleasure all over my body and then felt on ground without any power left. I was doing this to myself really often, until I found out what is sex, orgasm and masturbation.
When I was between 9 and 10 year of my life, I already knew about sex thanks to my friends and internet. This was a period of kinky silence. I stopped doing pain to myself as I thought that I can have simliar sensation just from masturbation. Im really a orgasmic girl so I never had a problem to cum. Yes sometimes it took me three minutes sometimes twenty, but I can cum at the end everytime. I learned what turns me on, we had some sexualy experiments with my girl friend, I learned how I can have more orgasms then one and I remember how my friends were really jealous about that.
But the important thing happened whan I was about 12 years old maybe a little bit younger. I started to read on the internet about real bdsm, not just rubberbands on my legs and I knew that this is what I want. I remember how I saw a strictly and painfully tied girl and how I had three orgasms looking at that picture.
It went really fast back then, I used clothepins on my skin, everywhere, I tied my legs painfully together, I spanked my ass and my chest. I found a piece of wood in the garden that I used as a cane. But I was really gentle on myself, I never had a marks lasting for more then two hours. Actually I wasnt really into pain, clothepins, spanking and wax was enough for me, but it was a important period because I was practicing a lot of bondage, but there will be another post about that.
When I was about 14 years old I felt like I can tie myself in any position I want, so I started to want more pain. The techniques was still the same, I used various household items, but I used it either for spanking or whipping. What was different was intensity. I started to play for a longer times with myself, so I could take a lot more pain. When I was 14, I bruised myself for the first time and I liked it. I was looking into the mirror on my bruises every hour and I masturbated until my pussy was so sensitive that wearing panties hurts.
This experience gave me a new view on bdsm and on what I want. I limited selfbondage and I enjoyed pain alone. Till that moment I always was in bondage, and pain was as a guest to add more intensity. But that changed. I started to bruise myself more often, the usual spots were my ass, thighs, and chest. I started my sexual life with partner back then and those bruises where problem. We fortunately broke soon after, so he didnt have a time to found out the truth about me.
I was also trying some of the new things like nettles, hot or cold water, whipping with telephone cable that is still my most favorite whip tool since now. But more important then what I did to myself was which part I tortured. I never spanked or whipped my breasts or pussy, but when I turned 15 all these boundaries started to dissaper slowly. I remember my first pussy whipping as a most painfull but also wonderfull sensation. I started to use some weight on my nipples, this was the first time I actually teared a clothepin from my body, it was also great. I think that this year was a top of my painslut me because what I did till now I always enjoyed, I liked the pain as a new pleasure that I added to a sexual one.
When I started to push myself more I found out that I dont really enjoy harder play in the same way. I still liked it, but the pain wasnt pleasure at all, it was a pure pain. All this started with my new clamps that I bought. I couldnt stand them on my nipples for more then few seconds. The spanking was the same, when I tried to push myself behind this invisible limit, it started to hurt a lot more, like suddenly from intensity 5 to 10. I started to play with this new sensation, it was again absolutely different and I use it till now. Sometimes I want to add some pleasure so Im easy on myself, sometimes I want to feel pain so I wake up a masochist inside me.
When I was 17 years old I was obssesed with painfull bondage or hanging bondage. Again I limited a pure pain a little and started to use my ropes more. I tied myself so hard that I had a few days marks left on my body. I developed even a techniques how can I hang myself in the air alone, and Im still practicing and developing it till now. (by hanging I dont mean like by neck but suspension bondage)
I think that Im pushing myself and my limits still further, its slow now, but still pushing. When I was 19 years old I bleed during a play for the first time, not something serious, just a hard whipping. Im sure that I will push even more, no matter how bad it can sound, but the love for pain is inside me, and I dont really want to change it.
I kind of stopped searching new ideas on how to inflict pain to myself, like whipping, spanking, squeezing my skin, hot and cold is enough to me. I rather invest my time into searching a new ideas in humiliation and bondage.
Hope you had fun reading and see you soon in the next post, about bondage.
I will write about pain today, the basic and my most favorite bdsm tool.
Pain was my very first kink, first thing I tried and first thing I dreamed about. It all started when I was really young, somewhere between my 7-8 year. I remember that I dreamed about some strange rollecoaster that moves really slowly and there are multiple tortures devices on the way. My favorite was the one that inflicts pain into my legs. I dont know if I have borned with this kink already but my legs are still my favorite part to torture.
I started really slowly back then, with some rubberbands around my anckles, rope around my legs nothing with bondage tho, the pain was important to me. Its hard for me to remember all I tried as its really a long time ago, but what I remember is my first orgasm. it was about when I was 9 years old. I tied my leg in the air to a chair and then did pushups. I holded my free leg on my tied one so the thighs were closely touching and after a while I felt some great feeling. I didnt know what it was but after a while of enjoying this sensation I reached the top of it, felt great pleasure all over my body and then felt on ground without any power left. I was doing this to myself really often, until I found out what is sex, orgasm and masturbation.
When I was between 9 and 10 year of my life, I already knew about sex thanks to my friends and internet. This was a period of kinky silence. I stopped doing pain to myself as I thought that I can have simliar sensation just from masturbation. Im really a orgasmic girl so I never had a problem to cum. Yes sometimes it took me three minutes sometimes twenty, but I can cum at the end everytime. I learned what turns me on, we had some sexualy experiments with my girl friend, I learned how I can have more orgasms then one and I remember how my friends were really jealous about that.
But the important thing happened whan I was about 12 years old maybe a little bit younger. I started to read on the internet about real bdsm, not just rubberbands on my legs and I knew that this is what I want. I remember how I saw a strictly and painfully tied girl and how I had three orgasms looking at that picture.
It went really fast back then, I used clothepins on my skin, everywhere, I tied my legs painfully together, I spanked my ass and my chest. I found a piece of wood in the garden that I used as a cane. But I was really gentle on myself, I never had a marks lasting for more then two hours. Actually I wasnt really into pain, clothepins, spanking and wax was enough for me, but it was a important period because I was practicing a lot of bondage, but there will be another post about that.
When I was about 14 years old I felt like I can tie myself in any position I want, so I started to want more pain. The techniques was still the same, I used various household items, but I used it either for spanking or whipping. What was different was intensity. I started to play for a longer times with myself, so I could take a lot more pain. When I was 14, I bruised myself for the first time and I liked it. I was looking into the mirror on my bruises every hour and I masturbated until my pussy was so sensitive that wearing panties hurts.
This experience gave me a new view on bdsm and on what I want. I limited selfbondage and I enjoyed pain alone. Till that moment I always was in bondage, and pain was as a guest to add more intensity. But that changed. I started to bruise myself more often, the usual spots were my ass, thighs, and chest. I started my sexual life with partner back then and those bruises where problem. We fortunately broke soon after, so he didnt have a time to found out the truth about me.
I was also trying some of the new things like nettles, hot or cold water, whipping with telephone cable that is still my most favorite whip tool since now. But more important then what I did to myself was which part I tortured. I never spanked or whipped my breasts or pussy, but when I turned 15 all these boundaries started to dissaper slowly. I remember my first pussy whipping as a most painfull but also wonderfull sensation. I started to use some weight on my nipples, this was the first time I actually teared a clothepin from my body, it was also great. I think that this year was a top of my painslut me because what I did till now I always enjoyed, I liked the pain as a new pleasure that I added to a sexual one.
When I started to push myself more I found out that I dont really enjoy harder play in the same way. I still liked it, but the pain wasnt pleasure at all, it was a pure pain. All this started with my new clamps that I bought. I couldnt stand them on my nipples for more then few seconds. The spanking was the same, when I tried to push myself behind this invisible limit, it started to hurt a lot more, like suddenly from intensity 5 to 10. I started to play with this new sensation, it was again absolutely different and I use it till now. Sometimes I want to add some pleasure so Im easy on myself, sometimes I want to feel pain so I wake up a masochist inside me.
When I was 17 years old I was obssesed with painfull bondage or hanging bondage. Again I limited a pure pain a little and started to use my ropes more. I tied myself so hard that I had a few days marks left on my body. I developed even a techniques how can I hang myself in the air alone, and Im still practicing and developing it till now. (by hanging I dont mean like by neck but suspension bondage)
I think that Im pushing myself and my limits still further, its slow now, but still pushing. When I was 19 years old I bleed during a play for the first time, not something serious, just a hard whipping. Im sure that I will push even more, no matter how bad it can sound, but the love for pain is inside me, and I dont really want to change it.
I kind of stopped searching new ideas on how to inflict pain to myself, like whipping, spanking, squeezing my skin, hot and cold is enough to me. I rather invest my time into searching a new ideas in humiliation and bondage.
Hope you had fun reading and see you soon in the next post, about bondage.
Me and humiliation
Hi there,
in my next four posts I will write about how I started being kinky and how I developed that inside me. I will start with humiliation, kink that I enjoy only for few years, then I will write about bondage, pain and fetishes in my next posts.
I already wrote about how I play alone, so I cant apply basic humiliation ideas, because there is nobody to watch, I cant feel humiliated in front of nobody but myself. So I developed ideas that perfectly suits me. I was thinking and trying a lot of humiliation things, and I still do. Im really a new into this part of bdsm because I still have a lot of ideas to push myself into.
When I first started to think about spicing up my bdsm life with some humiliation, I was thinking about things that I hate, that I dont like, my limits we can say. The very first humiliation thing I did was anal. I never liked it as an idea, and I dont like it till now. I believe that some girls can feel pleasure from anal, but not me. Anyway its a basic thing I do to myself when I want to feel humiliated.
Next idea that I use till now and that is really a strong one to me, is doing things in front of mirror. Just being tied up in front of mirror means something to me. I dont feel bad about being kinky, not that, but its a strange feeling and definitely not something I can easily get used to.
This was enough to me for a long time, but then I started to thing about more. I remember that when I was 17 I was trying my first enema or putting icecubes in my butt. I dont do icecubes anymore because during one session I used a sharp one that scratched something inside me and it wasnt nice experience.
Anyway the big revolution came when I turned 18. I started to be more daring and I wanted to try something I really hate, like I didnt enjoyed anal, but it wasnt so bad, I wanted to push myself more. I was really obssesed by ideas about putting myself in situations I was afraid of. First thing that I was trying was mess, or something disgusting in general. I was raised as a child in very clean home, my mom is cleaning whole house three times a week. I dont feel ok about drinking from anyone else glass or bottle, eating from same plate or using a public bathroom so Im really strict about sanity and using that in bdsm seems very sexy to me.
My first realy messy experience was during a rainy day. I tied my legs into a frogtie, my hands behind my back and I lied in the middle of mud. The rain was heavy so the mud was flying all around my body, head and I was pretty dirty after while. It was amazing new experience, I loved it so much. I was doing another dirty things in mud, or sand and I still do and I still love it.
Another messy thing that was hard limit to me till 18 is pissing. I was disgusted by this for whole my life until I actually tried it, and again, I felt in love with it. I dont need to pee on myself like every week, but when there is a good opportunity and mood for it, its wonderful. I started slowly by peeing thru my panties on my legs and then peeing in bath all over myself. Now I say that I like it, but not like that I enjoy peeing over myself, I enjoy the emberassement of situation, when I think about how Im lying in mud, dirty like animal, its a huge turn on.
Together with this I started to do some workout. I never was this kind of person that is going for airobic or gym but I started to be lazy about sports at my 18 and honestly I felt like getting more and more fat. I wanted to be in shape so the naked workout at home was great idea. I did that for a months, then I got lazy and had some pauses. When I discovered orgasm denial later I started to workout on schedule, because I have a rule now, when I dont workout I dont cum.
After that I started to do things in public, but secretly ofcourse, I dont have enough courage to be real life exhibitionist. I tried vibrators under my cloth, being tied under my cloth, or have clothepins on my sensitive parts. I got myself in situations where I couldnt stay the pain so I was taking off clothepins in a full bus, or I was turning off a vibe inside my panties. I have nice memories on that.
Then when I was about 19 years and half old I discovered denial and teasing. It is actually super humiliation to me, being unable to cum plus the idea that I do it to myself. I have pretty strong will so I never had a problem with that, I can even ruin my own orgasm. But I have to stay in resonable denial periods, because when I tease myself too much I usualy lost urge and the whole effect is gone. Anyway I was realy a orgasm slut back then, I remember cumming five times a day, so four days of denial was and still is something horrible to me. Even when I cum once per two days its not enough and I feel urge for most of the time. The best thing on longer denial is to be in public, feeling the wet in my panties, my pussy throbing and trying to act like nothing is happening in front of all those people.
When I started to be horny like that in public, I dared myself to try another things as well. One of the really humiliation things I did was kneeling in public bathroom and masturbating there or trying to wipe some of the water on the floor there with my tits. I tried to pee myself in public bathroom, so I have to be in public on my way home. I wear just skirt and panties back there, so my pee was just on my bare legs, but anyway.
When I was 20 and a half years old I again pushed myself with another more daring stuff. I started to do things outdoors, not in public area but in places where is possibility that someone can see or come. Being naked and tied in woods is still a huge turn on for me, its not so much humiliation tho but a fear of being seen. Same goes with my night adventures. Being naked in the middle of the night, trying to avoid cars and people is also great. Im basically using all of the things I learnt in past just not at home, or at my garden, and its really intense, sometimes too much but I dont do that really often. When I go out I plan it for long days before.
What I want to try in the near future? I want to push my limit in tasting my pussy juice and tasting my pee.
Another thing I have in my mind is to try be dirty. I will need a few days for myself, with really limitating bathroom. I will pee outside, I will be sporting and sweat myself, but dont wash and dont change clothes etc. Im really open to this fantasy last few days. I want also push my public limit, but I dont know if this happens anytime soon. I will maybe start slowly with some photos without head that I will leave in my town, or on the internet.
That would be all about humiliation, in the next post I will focus on pain.
in my next four posts I will write about how I started being kinky and how I developed that inside me. I will start with humiliation, kink that I enjoy only for few years, then I will write about bondage, pain and fetishes in my next posts.
I already wrote about how I play alone, so I cant apply basic humiliation ideas, because there is nobody to watch, I cant feel humiliated in front of nobody but myself. So I developed ideas that perfectly suits me. I was thinking and trying a lot of humiliation things, and I still do. Im really a new into this part of bdsm because I still have a lot of ideas to push myself into.
When I first started to think about spicing up my bdsm life with some humiliation, I was thinking about things that I hate, that I dont like, my limits we can say. The very first humiliation thing I did was anal. I never liked it as an idea, and I dont like it till now. I believe that some girls can feel pleasure from anal, but not me. Anyway its a basic thing I do to myself when I want to feel humiliated.
Next idea that I use till now and that is really a strong one to me, is doing things in front of mirror. Just being tied up in front of mirror means something to me. I dont feel bad about being kinky, not that, but its a strange feeling and definitely not something I can easily get used to.
This was enough to me for a long time, but then I started to thing about more. I remember that when I was 17 I was trying my first enema or putting icecubes in my butt. I dont do icecubes anymore because during one session I used a sharp one that scratched something inside me and it wasnt nice experience.
Anyway the big revolution came when I turned 18. I started to be more daring and I wanted to try something I really hate, like I didnt enjoyed anal, but it wasnt so bad, I wanted to push myself more. I was really obssesed by ideas about putting myself in situations I was afraid of. First thing that I was trying was mess, or something disgusting in general. I was raised as a child in very clean home, my mom is cleaning whole house three times a week. I dont feel ok about drinking from anyone else glass or bottle, eating from same plate or using a public bathroom so Im really strict about sanity and using that in bdsm seems very sexy to me.
My first realy messy experience was during a rainy day. I tied my legs into a frogtie, my hands behind my back and I lied in the middle of mud. The rain was heavy so the mud was flying all around my body, head and I was pretty dirty after while. It was amazing new experience, I loved it so much. I was doing another dirty things in mud, or sand and I still do and I still love it.
Another messy thing that was hard limit to me till 18 is pissing. I was disgusted by this for whole my life until I actually tried it, and again, I felt in love with it. I dont need to pee on myself like every week, but when there is a good opportunity and mood for it, its wonderful. I started slowly by peeing thru my panties on my legs and then peeing in bath all over myself. Now I say that I like it, but not like that I enjoy peeing over myself, I enjoy the emberassement of situation, when I think about how Im lying in mud, dirty like animal, its a huge turn on.
Together with this I started to do some workout. I never was this kind of person that is going for airobic or gym but I started to be lazy about sports at my 18 and honestly I felt like getting more and more fat. I wanted to be in shape so the naked workout at home was great idea. I did that for a months, then I got lazy and had some pauses. When I discovered orgasm denial later I started to workout on schedule, because I have a rule now, when I dont workout I dont cum.
After that I started to do things in public, but secretly ofcourse, I dont have enough courage to be real life exhibitionist. I tried vibrators under my cloth, being tied under my cloth, or have clothepins on my sensitive parts. I got myself in situations where I couldnt stay the pain so I was taking off clothepins in a full bus, or I was turning off a vibe inside my panties. I have nice memories on that.
Then when I was about 19 years and half old I discovered denial and teasing. It is actually super humiliation to me, being unable to cum plus the idea that I do it to myself. I have pretty strong will so I never had a problem with that, I can even ruin my own orgasm. But I have to stay in resonable denial periods, because when I tease myself too much I usualy lost urge and the whole effect is gone. Anyway I was realy a orgasm slut back then, I remember cumming five times a day, so four days of denial was and still is something horrible to me. Even when I cum once per two days its not enough and I feel urge for most of the time. The best thing on longer denial is to be in public, feeling the wet in my panties, my pussy throbing and trying to act like nothing is happening in front of all those people.
When I started to be horny like that in public, I dared myself to try another things as well. One of the really humiliation things I did was kneeling in public bathroom and masturbating there or trying to wipe some of the water on the floor there with my tits. I tried to pee myself in public bathroom, so I have to be in public on my way home. I wear just skirt and panties back there, so my pee was just on my bare legs, but anyway.
When I was 20 and a half years old I again pushed myself with another more daring stuff. I started to do things outdoors, not in public area but in places where is possibility that someone can see or come. Being naked and tied in woods is still a huge turn on for me, its not so much humiliation tho but a fear of being seen. Same goes with my night adventures. Being naked in the middle of the night, trying to avoid cars and people is also great. Im basically using all of the things I learnt in past just not at home, or at my garden, and its really intense, sometimes too much but I dont do that really often. When I go out I plan it for long days before.
What I want to try in the near future? I want to push my limit in tasting my pussy juice and tasting my pee.
Another thing I have in my mind is to try be dirty. I will need a few days for myself, with really limitating bathroom. I will pee outside, I will be sporting and sweat myself, but dont wash and dont change clothes etc. Im really open to this fantasy last few days. I want also push my public limit, but I dont know if this happens anytime soon. I will maybe start slowly with some photos without head that I will leave in my town, or on the internet.
That would be all about humiliation, in the next post I will focus on pain.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Me and my second life
Hello,
in this post I want to focus on what bdsm means to me, how I see my life and how I do perverted things in my personal life.
About my life.
I live a pretty normal life as a student, my parents are great, I was in couple of relationships but only vanila. Im single at the moment and I dont feel like I need someone right now. I never met someone who was bdsm positive, my last boyfriend could understand it a little, but we decided after some time that I need more then vanila relationship with some fetish in bed, so we broke. It was for good because I started to feel that I dont enjoy vanila sex without any kind of bdsm.
I live in a small town with my parents. They live downstairs and I have whole upstairs for myself. As I said its a small town, forests are all around, and another closest town is about 5 kilometers far away. My parents like to travel a lot, so I have really a lot of possibilities to play. Another place I like is our cottage. Its about 3 hours away by car from my home, and its pretty much in suclusion area. Another great thing is that I dont know anybody there and they dont know me in case of, you know, something. Anyway as you can see I have a lot of oportunities to be alone and save.
So as I said, I live a pretty normal life, where Im a shy girl. But when Im alone I do pretty wild things. I think that its inside me, because I liked pain and pretty uncommon things as a 7 years old girl. Since then I practice those things on myself without any partner so far. A lot of people told me multiple times to find someone, that its better and so on, but Im still not sure. I would like to try it with partner, but on the other hand I would miss to do things alone. The point is that Im not a 100% slave or submissive, my fantasies are somewhere else a little bit. I dont feel any pleasure from being a good girl, from making my master happy or from him being something more then me. I have pleasure from pain alone, from frustration during bondage or from fear if I will be able to untie myself or not, the idea that there is nobody who can untie me or help me is super exciting to me. When I find partner for bdsm it surely cant be a pure dominant but someone who likes it same way as I do. Another thing is that I do it mainly for sexual pleasure. When I was talking with other girls I was suprised that lot of them like it because of that humiliation and because someone is on top of them.
I just like to plan a scenario for myself, so I know whats in front of me, I can change the intensity, but when I jump right in I know that I cant really do anything about that. I already was thru a lot of my crazy ideas where I would scream safeword on my partner, but when there is nobody but me, I must do it and when its behind me I totally love it. Then there is my imagination. When Im playing alone I can go really deep, stop thinking about anything else, no talking, no thinking, that would be really different with partner. As I promised I will be more detailed, this was just briefly about how I do things, why I like bdsm and what possibilities I have in my life. Sometimes I feel like living a schizo life, but I guess I cant help it. And I dont even want to change it. I like this perverted me and it will be part of my life forever.
I hope you can understand me atleast a little bit more from what I wrote, because I have a really hard time expressing this part of me and why I like to play with myself. If there are any questions I will be happy to answer them.
in this post I want to focus on what bdsm means to me, how I see my life and how I do perverted things in my personal life.
About my life.
I live a pretty normal life as a student, my parents are great, I was in couple of relationships but only vanila. Im single at the moment and I dont feel like I need someone right now. I never met someone who was bdsm positive, my last boyfriend could understand it a little, but we decided after some time that I need more then vanila relationship with some fetish in bed, so we broke. It was for good because I started to feel that I dont enjoy vanila sex without any kind of bdsm.
I live in a small town with my parents. They live downstairs and I have whole upstairs for myself. As I said its a small town, forests are all around, and another closest town is about 5 kilometers far away. My parents like to travel a lot, so I have really a lot of possibilities to play. Another place I like is our cottage. Its about 3 hours away by car from my home, and its pretty much in suclusion area. Another great thing is that I dont know anybody there and they dont know me in case of, you know, something. Anyway as you can see I have a lot of oportunities to be alone and save.
So as I said, I live a pretty normal life, where Im a shy girl. But when Im alone I do pretty wild things. I think that its inside me, because I liked pain and pretty uncommon things as a 7 years old girl. Since then I practice those things on myself without any partner so far. A lot of people told me multiple times to find someone, that its better and so on, but Im still not sure. I would like to try it with partner, but on the other hand I would miss to do things alone. The point is that Im not a 100% slave or submissive, my fantasies are somewhere else a little bit. I dont feel any pleasure from being a good girl, from making my master happy or from him being something more then me. I have pleasure from pain alone, from frustration during bondage or from fear if I will be able to untie myself or not, the idea that there is nobody who can untie me or help me is super exciting to me. When I find partner for bdsm it surely cant be a pure dominant but someone who likes it same way as I do. Another thing is that I do it mainly for sexual pleasure. When I was talking with other girls I was suprised that lot of them like it because of that humiliation and because someone is on top of them.
I just like to plan a scenario for myself, so I know whats in front of me, I can change the intensity, but when I jump right in I know that I cant really do anything about that. I already was thru a lot of my crazy ideas where I would scream safeword on my partner, but when there is nobody but me, I must do it and when its behind me I totally love it. Then there is my imagination. When Im playing alone I can go really deep, stop thinking about anything else, no talking, no thinking, that would be really different with partner. As I promised I will be more detailed, this was just briefly about how I do things, why I like bdsm and what possibilities I have in my life. Sometimes I feel like living a schizo life, but I guess I cant help it. And I dont even want to change it. I like this perverted me and it will be part of my life forever.
I hope you can understand me atleast a little bit more from what I wrote, because I have a really hard time expressing this part of me and why I like to play with myself. If there are any questions I will be happy to answer them.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Hello world
Hi there,
My first post, so exciting. Im just sitting here in my room, with my legs tied up, with some clothepins and clamps all over my body and after a looong teasing and edging session. I decided that before I let myself taste orgasm I will write this, right now, in pain. In this very first post I want to answer three basic questions about this blog. Who am I, what I like and why I started this blog.
Who is Lucie?
Im a 21 years old girl living in the Czech Republic. Im about to finnish second year on university of art and in the future Im going to be a teacher, I hope. My hobbies are art, tennis, riding a bike and bdsm ofcourse.
Now briefly about my sexual life. I like pain since I was a little girl, quite a long time before I even know what sex is. I started to masturbate when I was 12-13 and I link this addiction with pain since I can remember. I was happy with that situation for good 3 years, ofcourse I pushed myself quite quickly and I was doing a lot harder stuff then years ago, but when I was about 16 I started to feel that pain is just not enough. I started to do more perverted stuff then before, it just wasnt a pure pain anymore. I was excited about being forced to something. That was the period when I started to be active on online chats. I was searching for people that can force me to do things via internet, but it wasnt what I expected. I even searched for a real people, but again with no luck, only creeps.
So It was only me and myself again. I tried a lot of new things, even those one I would never even think about year ago. I was exploring this new world for about 2 years. When I turned 18 I bought my very first sexual toys, vibrator and vibe egg. I was really obsessed by this new toys. I remember that I practiced selfbondage every evening with those toys forcing my poor pussy to cum again and again. When I was about 19 another important thing came into my life. I started to go deep into denial and teasing. I cant imagine that I practice bdsm without it now. I was doing more perverted things, harder selfbondage, harder torture, longer denial and Im sure I still have a lot of space before I find my boundaries.
So what I like today?
I love pain, everywhere on my body, depends on intensity as a pleasure or as a punishement. My limit is blood, but I break this limit time to time while spanking or whipping myself.
I love to be humiliated but in private. I like the idea of being in mess, not really experienced in that yet. I would like to push my exhibition boundaries this summer. I have yet a lot of things to push in humiliation category.
In case of bondage I like everything. Im total rope whore. I dont really like chains tho.
This is just briefly written, I will focus on this topic in my next posts.
And last, most important thing.
Why I started this blog? I was chatting with some new and great people last few months and they really loved what Im doing so I thoutgh that I can open to wider public. I like to write about myself, because even tho Im really shy in real life, there is a exhibitionist inside me. I just love the idea that I share my adventures with another strangers on the internet.
Another thing is that when you meet someone new, it tooks weeks and hours of writing before you can be sure that she / he looks on sexual life similar to you. I plan to write a lot here, about what I like, what I want to try and what I hate. I want to find people with similar likes, so we can talk about it then maybe.
And last thing is that I hope to be in touch with regular visitors after some time. I plan to let you decide how long I should stay tied up, or how hard should I be on myself. I want visitors to feel like part of my adventures especially in longer sessions, even days long.
Lets see how it will work :)
My first post, so exciting. Im just sitting here in my room, with my legs tied up, with some clothepins and clamps all over my body and after a looong teasing and edging session. I decided that before I let myself taste orgasm I will write this, right now, in pain. In this very first post I want to answer three basic questions about this blog. Who am I, what I like and why I started this blog.
Who is Lucie?
Im a 21 years old girl living in the Czech Republic. Im about to finnish second year on university of art and in the future Im going to be a teacher, I hope. My hobbies are art, tennis, riding a bike and bdsm ofcourse.
Now briefly about my sexual life. I like pain since I was a little girl, quite a long time before I even know what sex is. I started to masturbate when I was 12-13 and I link this addiction with pain since I can remember. I was happy with that situation for good 3 years, ofcourse I pushed myself quite quickly and I was doing a lot harder stuff then years ago, but when I was about 16 I started to feel that pain is just not enough. I started to do more perverted stuff then before, it just wasnt a pure pain anymore. I was excited about being forced to something. That was the period when I started to be active on online chats. I was searching for people that can force me to do things via internet, but it wasnt what I expected. I even searched for a real people, but again with no luck, only creeps.
So It was only me and myself again. I tried a lot of new things, even those one I would never even think about year ago. I was exploring this new world for about 2 years. When I turned 18 I bought my very first sexual toys, vibrator and vibe egg. I was really obsessed by this new toys. I remember that I practiced selfbondage every evening with those toys forcing my poor pussy to cum again and again. When I was about 19 another important thing came into my life. I started to go deep into denial and teasing. I cant imagine that I practice bdsm without it now. I was doing more perverted things, harder selfbondage, harder torture, longer denial and Im sure I still have a lot of space before I find my boundaries.
So what I like today?
I love pain, everywhere on my body, depends on intensity as a pleasure or as a punishement. My limit is blood, but I break this limit time to time while spanking or whipping myself.
I love to be humiliated but in private. I like the idea of being in mess, not really experienced in that yet. I would like to push my exhibition boundaries this summer. I have yet a lot of things to push in humiliation category.
In case of bondage I like everything. Im total rope whore. I dont really like chains tho.
This is just briefly written, I will focus on this topic in my next posts.
And last, most important thing.
Why I started this blog? I was chatting with some new and great people last few months and they really loved what Im doing so I thoutgh that I can open to wider public. I like to write about myself, because even tho Im really shy in real life, there is a exhibitionist inside me. I just love the idea that I share my adventures with another strangers on the internet.
Another thing is that when you meet someone new, it tooks weeks and hours of writing before you can be sure that she / he looks on sexual life similar to you. I plan to write a lot here, about what I like, what I want to try and what I hate. I want to find people with similar likes, so we can talk about it then maybe.
And last thing is that I hope to be in touch with regular visitors after some time. I plan to let you decide how long I should stay tied up, or how hard should I be on myself. I want visitors to feel like part of my adventures especially in longer sessions, even days long.
Lets see how it will work :)
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