Task from you

Hi, this will be the first post, or first scenario, that includes your tasks. As I said in past, I will do anything in my limits, so there is a big space for kinky ideas. I will write about night fun from yesterday, again it wasnt too extreme but it was fun! I liked it because it was your ideas and I felt like a toy little bit.

I started by warming myself up watching some bdsm art on the internet before I continued with first step. First task was to stand in my window, blindfolded and with lights on. I should stand there until I reach orgasm, plain and simple :) Well I must say that it was pretty easy task for me because as I wrote already couple of times, my room is in attic. I decided to make it harder tho, so I picked the window that is facing the road. I think that anyone who looked up would see me, but I also think that nobody is looking up while walking the street :) Reaching orgasm took me some time. Standing is always the slowest position for me.

After this orgasm I was nicely warmed up and eager for another pleasure. I decided to put together both ideas from comments on my blog with a little tweaking. Im sorry that I wont follow your directions exactly but I know from experience what my body can take. Well I more likely know what my body cant take and I have some bad memories from past :) thanks to them Im much sober now.

I prepared my vibrator and with ropes I secured it directly to my clit, no insertion. I think that this was the readers point. Also vibrations are a lot more intense this way, no question about it. I tight myself on chair, nothing fancy. It was pretty comfortable bondage, I mean in comfortable position, the bondage itself was tight and I must say I can do chair bondage pretty well as I couldnt move at all except my toes and hands.

Oh I forgot to tell about my release method. I dont use icecubes anymore, even tho I did in past and its a pretty romantic release method if you know what I mean, very iconic for selfbondage, random and the cold drops can be used for another sensation. When thinking about it I should try it again . But yesterday I used selfbondage CD tray opener program. Im using my notebook for this, as there is no danger in blackout and the program automatically open the tray when battery is low. I set it up for 45 minutes, but I started countdown before I tied myself, so I couldnt reach it from chair.

So I was tied, timer was on now just finnish and enjoy the bondage. I put clamps on my nipples a rope in my mouth. On the rope I tied my 1Kg weight and connected the same weight with clamps on my nipples. It was predicament situation, I holded the weight with my mout so my nipples were fine, but if I let got it will hurt.

Then I quickly put a chains around my wrists and looked on my notebook display. There was 32 minutes left, so Im going to be in this position for half an hour, exactly how I planned. I turned on the vibrator, put blindfold on my eyes and quickly locked my hands behind my back with padlock.

I was in strict bondage, all thoughts went away and I could live just for the pleasure in between my legs. And it was pretty strong and intense pleasure. I knew that in perfect situation I should hold the first orgasms as long as I could but Im far from being perfect. I was building myself fast, helping with hips and with every attempt of movement I felt the ropes on my skin. And the vibrator was in excelent position, not moving at all. I was cumming like a little bondage whore in few moments. It was long satisfying orgasm and the second one followed.

There was no break, I cant even say when exactly the orgasm ended and I started to build up again. I was building myself up much longer this time but also the pleasure was much better then first time. It was very beautiful, and very rare, the sensation from masturbation was so strong that I wanted it to never end. It happens to me from time to time, usually after a lot of orgasms, but I came just two times today which was strange. I was totally lost in time by this point. I couldnt tell if this second orgasm lasts one or ten minutes.

After that I came back to reality again. My pussy started to be sensitive but still wanted to cum again. It was painfull, but at the same time it was really nice. I came back to the earth at this point and tried to hold orgasm this time really hard. I had no idea how long time was left. Also after the second orgasm I realized that I have still the rope in my mouth, I totally forgot about that and was surprised, but something deep in my head holds my teeth together, which was really nice of my body.

I was fighting that orgasm for quite a long time, but I just couldnt hold it with vibrator in this position, no matter what I do. So I came at last and things started to go interesting. Its really hard for me to describe moments like this one, same as its hard for anyone else describe the orgasm. Its not a pain, when I hit my ass with whip thats pain this is different. Immidiately after orgasm I feel horrible sensation torturing my pussy, so intense that I cant focus on anything I dont even think at that moment. This last just few seconds but feels like eternity. After that I start to feel pleasure again, building slowly and easing the "pain" in my clit. Eventually it will get to point where there is only pleasure, but at this point I know Im so close to orgasm and that it will be painfull again. Still I enjoy orgasm and I dont care about anything while cumming.

Its like a rollercoaster but with every orgasm the pain is bigger, longer and the orgasm weaker. It gets very dangerous in fact, thats why I put a timer just for half an hour. It took five orgasms before I felt keys dropped. After that it was a pretty straight forward. I unlocked my hands as fast as I could and turned the vibrator off. I was sitting there for a while before I untied myself. The thing I was proud about was that I hold the rope in my mouth whole the time. My nipples were sore from clamps but it could be much worse.

So there was another of my forced orgasms adventure, I hope you liked it because its one of the thing that balance on my limits and I said to myself multiple times in past I will never do a long season with uncotrolable vibrator :) but you asked for it, and Im here to suffer so thanks for that :)

Again, I beg you to write me anything I should do or I should write about. If you are interested in anything about me in detail, I will be happy to write out, and I think that by now you can tell I love to write about myself, and its even better when I know someone actually ready and enjoys that :))

Have a nice day, bye :)

School - first test

Hello guys :)

As I said, I was doing a semi-public scenario at my school this week. Well it wasnt too daring, but it was like a test for something bigger in future, and it worked exactly as I hoped.

So, about the idea. There is about 600 lockers at my school but you dont have your own, you just rent it. Everytime you want to use a locker you must use your ID card in the entrance and one of the lockers is assigned to you for a day. At midnight, all lockers reset and they all unlocked, ready for morning. My idea was to use a key, let it in random locker and see if Im lucky or it is already taken and the key is gone.

I was never tied up or turtured under my cloth at school, where I have to actually focus on things, so I wanted to try slowly for the first time. I asked some people about what should I do, and tried to complete all ideas into my first scenario.

I used three keys and padlocks, so on Tuesday I left keys in three different lockers plus to be more daring I left photo of my tits in one of them. Next day in the morning I prepared myself. I insert vibrator in my pussy, but I didnt turned it on, was afraid that someone would hear that, so I used it just as dildo. I put my underwear on, secured my bra with chain and one padlock. After that I pulled my panties up, so the vibrator went even deeper, then I secured my panties to bra with another chains. One in front and one in back, bath secured with other two padlocks. I know that it is not so extreme but I was really unsure and wanted to test slowly :)

Well I went to school like that. If I find a key from bra padlock, I can free myself from bondage and vibrator but I must strip naked on bathroom. If I find one key from panties chains, it wont have any effect, I may be able to slip vibrator out, but it would be still hard. I left my hous around 8:30 and I should get back at 14:00.

When I closed door behind myself I was already excited. I was passing other people and it was really a great sensation, feeling the vibrator inside me, and chains on my skin. I was trying hard to maintain casual look like everything is normal. Vibrator was really deep inside me, and walking like that was really pleasurable. I really got away with that feeling and few times I caught myself moving my ass like slut and tensing muscles around my thighs. I believe that I would cum easily like that, I felt building myself, really slowly but I felt it. I stopped because I didnt want to cum on busy street and I bet I looked stupid I dont really walk like that. Its about 15 minutes to my school, and when I arrived I was excited even more.

I wasnt sure if I want to find keys or not, because this situation wasnt unpleasant at all and I kinda liked that. I used my card and entered dressing room. First thing I saw were three girls standing near locker in which I left key with my photo. I felt wave of sudden excitement inside me, and I instantly walked towards my locker for today. I was trying to hear their conversation, but it was about some subjects, so I think thay didnt find what I thought. I took of my winter jacket, very slowly waiting for them to leave.

When they left I went to check my hideouts. When I looked around, most of the lockers were closed. I started to feel that I might have bad luck. And I was right. The locker with key and my photo was already taken same as the second one. But I was lucky and found key in the last one. I had no idea what padlock it unlocks. I rushed to the bathroom, locked myself in cubicle and lift my shirt up. First I tried padlock in front and it was it. I must say that I was kinda happy it is not a key from my bra at that moment. I pulled my jeans down and tried to make my panties more comfortable, and it wasnt much better, wedgie in back was still very tight. I played with vibrator a bit, tried to turn it on for a moment, but it was so deep inside me I couldnt reach it, I would have to pull it out slightly and I didnt want that. I tried to pushed it even further inside to find out how deep it is. Vibrator was all inside secured with panties, but it wasnt painfull. Well I dont have really long one :)

Anyway my class was about to start, so I dressed, made sure nothing can be visible thru cloth and left bathroom. I saw some free spots in the back of   theater, I didnt want to sit directly next to other people. Vibrator still felt nice, but only until I sat down. I didnt even realized that I was standing whole the time. I cant say it was painfull like I couldnt stand it, but it wasnt pleasant at all. When I moved on chair it was even worse. So I decided to not move at all, and see if I can endure that.

Well I spend almost two hours there, trying not to move at all, enduring pressure on back of my pussy and focusing on course at the same time. I must say that it was most unpleasant feeling I ever gave myself in public. After this I stand up and felt instant relieve. I was thinking about trying to pull it out, but I wanted to be hard on myself, I can do another course like that. I went back to theater after break, sat down and enjoyed that strange feeling once again. I was moving on chair a bit, pleasuring myself a bit to make it better. I was sitting all the way in back, so I was actually free doing whatever I want under desk. When it was over I was horny again. I decided that I will cum on my way back home, if I could.

So exit school and walked towards my house. Vibrator felt nice once again and I started to build orgasm. I was twisting my ass and hips, tensing my muscles, I must have looked funny. I tried really hard and it was really nice feeling, but I couldnt build myself up, there was no orgasm.

That is about my first public try. Also at home I went to bathroom because I needed to pee already. I was really wet between my legs, and I had huge dried spot on my panties. When I freed myself I felt great relieve on my ass, which was strange, because I didnt feel any pain in that area.

As I said, it wasnt too extreme as a story, but it was fun, something new, and I will definitely doo more sem public stuff. Do you have any idea what should I do? Using lockers or just in public? Write in comments ! If its in my limits I will do it and post about it :)

Today I will be doing some ideas from comments on my blog, so see you soon :)

Bye

Pushing my limits - part 2

I did this intense dare just yesterday, so I want to share how it went. Im not going to describe excatly what I did as it has been already written in part1 :)

First I prepared my orgasm-torture panties. Vibrator directly on my clit, and secured everything with ropes. It was very thight, I could feel slight pain while walking.

Next step was bondage. I tied myself up but when I was done, I was touching the ground just with my head. I felt really big and upleasant pressure on my left anckle. I was sure that I wont last long like this, so I had to untie myself and do it again. This time I lower my body little bit more as I planned first time, so I was lying on my back and it was all fine. Ofcourse there was still a painfull pressure on my leg, but it was bearable and I knew it wont be a problem.

The I used earplugs adn skirt as a blindfold. I tied rope around my head on three spots. My eyes, under nose and around neck. All I saw was a black "nothing" I couldnt breathe with my nose and as I breated thru jean skirt it wasnt easy even with my mouth. Also I dont think it was dangerous, as I just felt the skirt, but I was faar from choking myself or anything like that. Also I hear nothing, my breathing became really loud. In situation like this its easy to fall in fantasy and lost connection with reality :) I felt how Im dripping wet, soaking my panties.

I played a bit with myself, smoothing my thighs, nipples and chest. I struggle a little bit imagining someone locked me down. When I was horny enough and took a phone cable in my hand and started to whip myself. The first hit was amazing. I felt it run thru my whole body. So I hit myself again and again, harder then before.

I felt how my thigh was getting hotter and felt how my skin was burning. When I though I cant stand in anymore I gave myself last 10 hits, I tried to make them the hardest ones. It was painfull so much that I flexed myself, and felt my body in the air for a while. It was great, being in silence with my thihg in nice pain. I proceed with other spots, had sliglty problems with butt cheeks, so I skipped those spots. I didt realize that I will have panties on myself. 

When I was done with my nipples, my skin was in serious pain. With hand I could feel swollen spots here and there. The pain was big enough that I didnt feel ropes on my legs, which was also a nice sensation. I gave myself a little break enjoying this situation... almost wanted to turn on the vibrator but I could hold myself. I proceed with second whipping round. I could take more pain as I was "high" already, but my skin was also sensitive as hell by this moment.

Second whipping round was quicker, I felt too much pain. I even screamed in my skirt sometimes, mainly during those last 10 hits. It was nice tho, I felt really good. After a while I was in mood to hit myself again, but I kned there will be opportunity, so I went on with my scenario. I was also scared a little bit as I was blindfolded and was actually now idea how hard I was on myself. I could have been bleeding all over my floor, but that was unlikely as I would feel the blood.

I put five clamps on each breast, one directly on nipple. I was suprised that it didnt hurt so bad. Then I put all clothepins from my bag on my skin, some fell of out of reach so I dont know exact number, but I have 64 clothepins in my bag. I believe I had minimum of 55 on my skin.

Now I cant tell how long I was lying there. I helped my clothepins to cause more pain by squeezing them and generaly playing with them. At one point the pain was so bad that it felt like someone is pulling my skin off. I tried to hold it some more, but I couldnt, so I turned on the vibrator to ease the pain. It helped and it was amazing. I was building myself so fast that I had to turn it off after with moments to prevent orgasm. 

I quickly started to whip myself while I was still in the mood. At this point I was already like drugged. Sometimes I felt how I whipped of the clothepin, but as I couldnt hear I wasnt sure at all. The pain was still the same. When I finnished I quickly checked how many pegs are left, and I was suprised as almost all of them where down. I counted 14 clothepins left on my body, took them of and hit myself 14 times on each spot again. My body was in constant pain, so I hardly felt any differenc whipping myself at this point.

When I did it I turned on vibrator again, because I need it badly. It was very fast edge before I had to turn it ofg again. I picked as many clothepins from ground around me as I could. I have no idea how many, and I started to create zipper. When I was done I prepared chains around my wrists. Then I turned on the vibrator and quickly locked myself.

My hands were secured and I couldnt reach my body. I felt orgasm after first few seconds. I cant say that it was really strong pleasure, but it was loooong.. .I was struggling in ropes for a really long, or atleast it felt like a long time. When the pleasure fade out, I started to ripping of the clothepins. I could move the rope only with fingers, so it was really slow. With every clothepin of my body I felt another orgasm approaching. I came another two times before all clothepins where ripped and I finally held keys in my hand.

Interesting thing was that I didnt feel anything too intense between my legs, even after three orgasms. When I free my hands I was slowly reaching another one while touching my body all over the sensitive spots, squeezing my nipples.. 

I turned vibrator after 4th orgasm and I rested for awhile before untying myself. It was one of the most intense and most painfull scenarios I ever did. But I think that my idea with sensory deprivation worked and I felt the pain more intense then it actually was. When I checked my body after untying myself I had just few scratches from clothepins, but the marks from whipping wasnt too bad at all.

Today, about 14 hours after, I have couple of bruises on my thighs and on one spot on my chest. Also I bruised my anckle and I scratched my skin on few spots with clothepins. My pussy is also a bitch, Im sensitive whole day but horny since morning. Im not going to masturbate tho. It was intense, but I have almost no marks, so it was more then great idea :)

I have new plans on wednesday, I will be doing much easier task this time, but it will be at my school, under my cloth. I will make sure to write about it :)

Also as I said before, if you have any ideas and do you want me to try, feel free to write me email, or better just leave your idea here, in comments :)

Bye

Pushing my limits dare

Dare I wrote for getdare.com. I will write a report after I complete it myself.

I was in bdsm mood since morning today so I think up evening / night scenario for myself, and thought I might share it. Main goals for me were hard bondage, hard pain and I wanted to try a self-sensory deprivation.

This scenario is going to push limits a little bit. I want to test my ability to endure a long time in bondage without being able to see or hear. Also it may take some time, so make sure you have house, or room just for yourself ,)

Items you will need. Ropes, lots of clothpins and some clamps with harder squeeze if you like pain alot, whip / cane / anything you can hit yourself with, handcuffs or chains and padlocks (not if you arent interested in strict bondage), few pairs of undies, ear plugs and some bigger piece of clothing (Im gonna use jean skirt). Oh and vibrator or vibrating egg or anything you use.

First of all put vibrator on your pussy, but not inside. What Im going to do is to spread my lips, place a vibrator so it is directly on my clit, and then pull atlesat 3 pairs of panties on. I will use undersized ones but I think your size is fine too. Then to make 100% sure it will not move I will tie my crotch with rope, make it extra tight.

Second step you should do is to find a good place to tie yourself up. You will want some immovable or heavy objects. Because my room is in attic I use two pillars. Prepare all your props before you start tying up. Also as we are going to be in bondage for some time, find some shibari how-to for suspension if you are not familiar with that. You should not have ropes too tight around body parts.

Im going to tie one of my leg up in the air, then fixed it with second rope around knee so I cant move at all and the leg remains vertical position. As for second leg, I will tie it to the pole on the other side of my room. I will try to suspend it as much as possible. The goal is to half-hang by my first leg and while I will be spread as much as I can because of second leg. When I finnish this I should be lying on my back with my butt in the air, I should feel preassure on my anckles and it should hurt abit because of how stretched I will be.

After that prepare some rope behind your head, you will then lock your hands to it. Just make sure you cant reach yourself when you lock your hands in future. If you are going only after sensual bondage skip everything involving hands. Ofcourse dont lock yourself yet.

Next step is to put ear plugs in your ears. I bought some of them in hardware shop, you can still hear tho a little but its fine for now. Then I will put my head in skirt and tie some rope around it to make sure it wont come off. Mainly around eyes so I cant really see any lights etc.

Now you are secured and the fun can begin. You can play with yourself as you like, smoothing your body etc. the panties and vibrator should make sure you cant really pleasure yourself. Also now its a good time for some pain. My expectations is that it will be more intense without ability to see or hear.

Push yourself here a bit. Im going to use a telephone cable. My idea is to circle body parts. So I will start on my right thigh, move to first butt cheek, then second, left thigh, my tummy and at last chest where I will try to aim for nipples. I will whip myself on one spot until the pain is unbearable, then I will hit myself 10 times more as hard as I can in that position. After that move to next spot, dont stop. Go over every spot 2 times, if you are more daring, do more circles. I prefer harder hits instead of long whipping tho.

After that you should be pretty warmed up. Now its time for clothepins and clamps. Put clamps directly on each nipple, then rest somewhere on breasts. When you are out of clamps try to put as many clothepins as you can on your skin. Chest, tummy, thighs, arms, neck. I have about 50 clothepins and I plan to use all of them. By the time you place last one, the first one should hurt already.

Now enjoy some pain. Try to push yourself, atleast thats what Im gonna do. Clothepins on skin cant cause any major harm anyways. When the pain will start to be unbearable and you will want to take all of them off, turn on the vibrator and hold some more. You can enjoy the pleasure till edge, if you dont want to you can turn it off sooner, but dont cum. When you turn vibrator off its time for some whipping again.

Same routine as before, whip yourself until you cant go on, 10 hard ones and move to other spot. When you are finnished you can take of all remaining clothepins. Count them. After that whip yourself again. On each spot as many times as number of clothepins left on your body. And dont be gentle on yourself.

Now we are almost at the end. Before locking your hands, try to find as many clothepins around you as you can. You will place them on your body once again, but this time connect them with rope and make a long zipper. I will have a key tied at the end of the rope so this will be also my release method.

When you are finnished take your time and then just turn on vibrator and locked your hands to prepared cuffs. To free myself I will have to tear of all the clothepins. Its up to you when. You can do it during orgasm, or after orgasm. I will go the harder way and try to endure it as long as I could. I expect myself to cum few time before I finally tear them of and free myself. Also the tearing will be pretty slow as my hands are going to be tied up.

After that you are free. If you are brave enough post a report. Also if you are not experienced in pain so much you can do it without blindfold, the amount of clothepins and time you will spend whipping yourself is up to you. If you are going to do it you should start stopwatch to see how long you spend in torture. Might be interesting :)

Adventure 2

This is the scenario I prepared for myself during last weekend. I knew that I would be alone whole Wednesday so I wanted something more complex. I didnt recieve any special wishes so I was on my own again. During Saturday I planned my whole day. I wanted to try something long this time. I was always fascinated about stories where someone had to endure bondage for whole day and those stories were big inspiration for me this time. Most of them are probably just fantasy as I dont seem real that clamps can be safely on nipples for ten hours for example, but the overall idea is really hot. So I prepared everything, put some keys into freezer and went to bed, already horny just thinking about Sunday.

I woke up at 8:00 as I planned and ate a breakfast. Next I took padlock keys and put them inside mailbox. I have mailbox right on the frontdoors but still I have to open them and there is quite a busy street outdoor. I then put my mailbox key in the backyard, right in the middle. Neighbours can easily see me there and I cant open mailbox without that key. Well my escape method was almost ready, I didnt plan any backup because those keys were safe. Next thing I did was to bring all props I needed downstairs and get ready with selfbondage.

I wanted to use my new cloth that I bought exactly for this, so I put on my pink undersized panties and bra, slutty black stockings and white top. After that I put chain around my belly and lock it around my panties, so without key I could not take them of. At this point I had to bring my ice cube with key, because I was ready to get into selfbondage.

My plan was divided into three parts. I will have to endure 30 minutes in panfull bondage while vibrator will force my clit hopefully into multiple orgasms. After that I will keep myself in strict bondage until the key in ice cube release me, leaving me in easier restraints. Then I should be able to get key from garden when it goes dark and open mailbox on the street.

First I chained my legs with 10 cm long chain so I can move but not so easily, and then I put another chain, tightly around my anckles, so I couldnt move at all. I used some ropes next, for my feet, knees and thighs. Then I put another chain around my chest just under my breasts. After that I took my dry shaver, in a grocery bag, and put it inside my panties. The reason why Im using this over vibrator is that it can easily slip away from right point and the battery can last maximum up to 30 minutes. I have to try hard achieving orgasm with this "toy" and usualy it turns off at the worst moment. I just love teasing and denial but also I dont think I can stand vibrator for too long. When my "vibrator" was in its place I tied another rope to my anckles and pull them to chain around my chest as tight as possible. When my legs were close enough I could lock a padlock between those two chains, anckles and chest, I did it and was trapped, with my whole body in really bad and painfull position. I was almost done but I was going for strict bondage this time so I turned on my shaver and locked both arms to the chain around my chest. I planned to stay with hands like this till evening, but for now I had to add something more, so I locked my wrists to the chain around my belly, and that was it.

The whole position looks pretty hard but it wasnt so bad, hardest thing was to remember correct padlocks order. I was there on the floor pretty satisfied with what I have done. After a while I came back to reality when I felt strong and quick orgasm that I could not stop. I was kinda suprised when it hit me because I wasnt really focusing on it. I clenched my muscles into ropes so my whole body was shaking. It was really long one and immediately after that I felt another pleasure waves, it took me just few seconds and I was cumming again. This time harder and even longer. Again I was stretching my whole body towards the ropes and trying to squeez out every pleasure wave from inside. When the second orgasm was over I was already exhausted, my body started to hurt and I was sweating everywhere but shaver in my panties was still on my clit and I started to feel another one coming. This time it took me a while, I was trying to stimulate myself with a little movement and finaly I was cumming again. Wave of pleasure was replaced by pain and exhaustion. I knew that this will be interesting, my clit was sensitive and vibration in my panties started to be little unpleasant.

I had no idea about time, it could be 20 minutes since I turned my shaver on or it could be just 4 minutes. I was getting quite worried because it was right on my clit and because I had really small panties it wont probably move away. It took just few moments until pain transformed into pleasure and I felt how Im approaching another orgasm. I wasnt helping this time, I was laying without any movement but it was pointless. Orgasm came maybe even quicker then before and still powerfull. Right after that it started to be really bad. I was trying to move that thing in my panties somewhere else but I couldnt almost move at all. I started to be worried about how I will pick up the keys. I was trying hard until I finally rolled over. I could touch the ice cube with my fingers, so atleast this was a good sign, anyway at this point my pussy screamed for another orgasm and I was quickly building myself. I couldnt control it anymore and during orgasm I already knew that it will hurt again after that. Orgasm was quicker this time but more intense, like the pain transformed into pleasure and then again back into pain. Way bigger pain then before.

Honestly, I have done this kind of forced orgasms before but this time it was really one of the most painfull session. I think that it was because of those small panties and because of the whole bondage position. After the fifth orgasm I started to panicked a little because I was totally lost in time, I didnt know how long I will have to endure it. I totally forgot about everything else, was laying there trying to not think about pain in my clit. I was fighting the ropes, putting my body into more pain and I hoped that my clit will hurt less because of this. I wanted another orgasm, not because of pleasure but because I needed break from pain. I was trying hard and finally I came. The orgasm was again quick but really intense, I started to moan and that is kinda rare when I dont want to. But this time it was just automatic. When I came the pleasure moans turned into painful moans. I ended up back on my chest with sharp pain in my clit. It was really bad and new to me, I even thought that my shaver is scratching my skin, but I had a protection on it so it wasnt possible.

It was endless, I couldnt even cum again. I was trying but every time I felt a little bit of pleasure it turned into pain really quickly. It seemed like hours to me, even tho that it could be seconds maybe few minutes. I was praying the shaver to turn off. When I felt its vibrations are slowing down I was so happy and when it stopped it was such a relieve. I rolled over again because laying on my tummy started to be uncomfortable. I felt how my body slowly starts to hurt everywhere not just my pussy. I cant say about what I was thinking. I was mad at me because of how much pain I had to endure, but at the same time I was enjoying it. It was so exciting that I couldnt fight that pain. I was kind of happy that my plan works so far, but at the same time I was worried and angry because of it. Well when you are horny you can plan some really nasty things for yourself.

It took a while until I stopped feeling that pain in my clit, but I had to endure another part of this day. The battery can last for about 30 minutes but the ice cube will melt in 3 hours, maybe little less during summer. Again I had absolutely no idea about time since the shaver stopped, I was just guessing, maybe 15 minutes, more or less? Anyway the ropes were doing really good job. The whole position was pretty hard and when I thought that I will stay like this for couple more hours, I wanted to cry. For few moments I was really sad because I planned it too hard, but when I was thinking about it I started turning on again. Bad for me I had no chance to cum this time.

I was trying to keep my mind clear, well more or less. I was focusing on sexual things. I was dreaming about myself in some kind of basement, or inside slave ship. It took just few minutes and I was horny again. Such irony, first I want to stop cumming badly, now I would like to but cant. The bondage was really painful by this time. I was trying to change positions but with no help. My legs, back and chest hurt most, but my hands wasnt a lot better. I was proud how nicely I prepared this to myself and I really enjoyed the pain. I was helping the ice to melt faster also but after a while my hands was freezing so I took long breaks. I could feel it smaller and smaller and this helped me to stay focused.

Big crisis came after about hour maybe more. I wasnt able to move at all in this position, maybe to roll over, but my legs were fixed perfectly and also my back was more or less in same position all the time. I started to feel big urge to move, so I fought ropes for a few moments but then stopped. I was feeling really bad that moment and thoughts about how I wont be able to free myself came on my mind. I started to help with melting again until my hands was freezing cold. When I calmed down I was thinking about possibilities how to make it even worse next time. Maybe blindfold, or clothepins.. I imagined how it would feel to have clothepins on skin for this long and that excited me again. When I came back from my dreams I decided to hot the ice some more, and when I was smoothing it I felt something sharp. It was the key, and I felt full of energy again.

It was suprisingly easy to unlock padlocks on my wrists but I couldnt reach the padlock between my legs and chest. I was trying hard and then I had to rest. My hands were a little bit sore so I wasnt as flexible as before. Well I was fighting with this situation for some time, really frustrated, but finally I could open it. I bruised my arms, but whatever I was free. When I straighten my legs it was amazing. I felt so free, even tho I was still tied up. I was resting for a while and then I proceeded with untiyng my legs and unlocking my anckles leaving just that 10 cm long chain between.

I sat down to check my body. It was a mess. I was sweating everywhere and my panties were wet. When I imagined that I will have to spend rest of the day in those wet cloth, I was horny again. I wanted to take out the shaver from my underwear but I had a hard time reaching it. I could barely touch my panties. I stand up on my legs just to found out how exhausted Im, but I wanted that shaver out and I hoped to look into panties and see if "everything is ok". I used wooden spoon to grab the bag and then I could reach it with my fingers so I pulled it out finally. Then I was able to see that my clit is really big and bright red, but it looked fine even tho it was still really sensitive when I touched it with the spoon. Also I checked clock finally and it was almost 13:00 so I spent about 3 hours in bondage. Maybe a little bit less with preparing and unlocking.

After that I drink some water and tried to mop my sweat on the floor. It was hard with my hands and anckles still chained, but it was the plan. Immediately after that I started to think about orgasm, or better how could I cum without messing anything. I decided that best thing will be to hump the broom, it will be easy to clean after. I could feel that my pussy is still sensitive but the urge was bigger then pain. I wasnt easy to cum like that but finally after minutes of fucking my broom I came, hard, and it was once again that good normal and long orgasm. Especially the feeling that I could stop right after was nice.

Another part of the plan was going to the bathroom. I sat on the toilet with my legs spread out as much as I could, but it was all I could do. It was so unnatural to sit there in panties that I had to force pee out, but it was fine. I peed directly thru the panties without messing anything. The bad thing was that now I cant really sit on chair. I improvised and used some old paper to sit on after.

Well after that I spent just a normal day. I just did everything slower, and I had some trouble preparing food. I must admit that I was really looking forward to evening because the cloth soaked in sweat wasnt really nice whole day outfit. I smelled really bad and the fact I had to pee with my panties on didnt help. When I decided its dark enough I took the key from the garden and prepared for my last exciting moment. I had to open the front door, unlock the mail box and pick up key. First of all I was looking from a window and when I didnt see anyone I moved to doors. I opened them a little and listened. I didnt hear anyone so I fully opened them and unlocked mailbox as fast as I could. It was really a quick action and I think that nobody saw me.

I unlocked everything left on myself, took my cloth off and finally check myself in mirror. I was bruised a little bit around my chest, and I had some bigger bruise on my right arm, hope it will dissapear soon. My pussy still excited and still red, I guess this was one of the hardest sexual adventures I did. I had some minor marks on legs but nothing serious. Overall I was fine. I washed my cloth and then I had a long and hot bath.

When I was lying in water I was just living my day again in live dreams. I was really proud how good I prepared everything and basically everything worked how I wished. I came for the last time that day before I cleaned whole house and went to bed. I didnt even thought about masturbation on Monday at all, I was really pushing myself so hard that I lost my sexual urge on one day.

And this is exactly why I love selfbondage and self-play at all. I imagine a situation, get into that situation and I have to endure it no matter what. My only limitations is courage and fantasy. I cant imagine a life without self-play, even when I will be in bdsm relationship if ever. I once again convinced myself about this and Im looking forward to the next scenario.

Just reminding, Im ready to complete your ideas this weekend. If you have womething on your mind and want me to do it, feel free to email me.

Have a nice day !

Too busy

Hi,

I have too much work with school this week, I will be pretty busy till Friday. I did my shopping tho. I have a nice white sexy tank top in which I look like little innocent girl, some slutty stockings, I have already small hole in them and skirt. I bought those things really cheap so they are nothing extra, but they will be great for what I will use them. As for underwear, I found really cheap teen set of pink bra and panties both with hello kitty pictures. I bought two and I have to say I love it, it totally met my expectations. 70A bra is really way too small and it feels so naughty wearing it, my whole chest is under pressure and same with panties, I can feel them tight around my hips and ye I like it. Also I found some panties just for about 2 dollars, great deals I thought, so I bought a pink naughty one in my size, I will dedicate them to my bdsm lifestyle. Also I bought thongs for 2 dollars and they are faulty, its funny. They are not centered so when I have them on its pretty weird and uncomfortable. It will make a wonderfull toy for selfbondage I guess.

As for other toys, I didnt bought ear plugs, because I read on them that they are only against big noise, so it wouldnt work as I wanted. Anyone have idea how to eliminate noise? I tried loud music but that is not quite effect I want. Anyway I bought about 40 new plastic black clothepins and I think I will buy even more next time Im in the shop. They dont squeez too hard but they are not even so easy, nice for placing lot of them on my body. I tried to put all 40 of them on one of my thigh and I decided that I need more of them. I bought a pepper sauce, the one I think burns most from all I tried. It should have got 30% of chilli. I dont know if I can find a hotter one in normal shop, and I dont know if I can stand a hotter one to be honest. I dont have a sand paper because I wasnt around hardware store, I will buy it tho in near future. Last thing I bought were long rubber bands. They are pretty thick and Im sure it will be painfull. I will have to test them soon.

I plan to do something on weekend, but for now I have to focus on school. If you want to dare me what to do with this new stuff I bought, feel free to contact me by email or in comments, I will do my best to complete the dare.

Bye

Shopping tomorrow

Hi guys,

tomorrow Im going for big shopping. Pretty usual thing that girls do right? Well its true, we like that, but tomorrow it will be different. Im going to buy some cloth and props for my bdsm play. Im really excited about it because I will go to city where I will have whole afternoon for myself and my perverted mind. I will definitely visit some cheap cloth store maybe even second hands. I have some ideas of what cloth I want to buy for this summer. Then I will spend some time in shops selling tools or garden props, I dont know, maybe I will see something that can be used as torture device. I will see.

As I said Im going mainly for clothes. I want some white or pink cheap panties or thongs, smaller size then I wear. I was even thinking about some childs underwear, I really want to feel that on my skin after few days wearing it. I plan to get really dirty in those panties during my sessions, especially looking forward to outdoor play.

I will also buy some matching bra, again in much smaller size so my chest is really under pressure. I like the idea of having clothepins or anything sharp in small bra on myself, that is really tight on my chest. Also Im looking forward to marks which I get by wearing small sized cloth.

Another piece of clothing I want to buy tomorrow is some really cheap and short dress. I want to modify it then at home and make the most slutty dress ever. I was thinking about making it even shorter if it will not be enough, making holes in it or write humiliating things on it. It will be nice piece of clothing for bdsm play and potentional outdoor humiliation. Again I will try smaller sizes, but I think it will not work quite well like with underwear.

Last thing on my wishlist for tomorrow are stockings. I want black one, or maybe pink. They should be really slutty and I will dont have mercy for them. I really liked bondage and bdsm play in stockings few days ago but I dont want to ruin my own stockings. I will see what else I will find in shop tomorrow and I believe I will buy something more.

As for other props I definitely want some good ear plugs, or anything that will make me hear nothing. I want to try selfbondage with blinfold, ear plugs and gag. I could use some more clothepins so I will be buying pack of them. I will be getting some hot sauce, I already have my favorite, dont remember how strong it is but I will share more info once I buy it. I want to push myself and get into selfbondage with this on my pussy, didnt find courage yet.

Sandpaper, never used it and I dont know why. It sounds like great tool, especialy into my new bra. rubber bands, but some stronger ones. I use the small ones from time to time, they are quite painfull but nothing special. I like marks they leave tho. You can even draw on your body with those things. Well I want some big ones.

And thats it for my list. Im sure I will buy some more things when I see them. I wanted to share about my plans for tomorrow and I will surely write about what I bought and what I didnt. I will be happy if you write me your ideas on pervertable items? Or what do you use?

Have a good night !

Orgasm without touching

Hi,

yesterday when I was doing my workout before bed I got really aroused and decided I will cum one more time using no hands. I dont mean that I can cum just by thinking on it, I would like to, but I cant. But what I can do is to achieve orgasm with some pain and physical exhaustion. Usualy when I do this I workout some part of my body, no matter which part, until I cant go on and then I can cum without hands. Long running or riding a bike until my body is exhausted works too.

Yesterday I was working on my tummy quite hard so I decided that its nice opportunity. I lay on my back with my legs straight and I rised them a little bit off the floor and held until I was out of power. I repeated this few more times. I was really excited by this and when my muscles were thightened it felt almost like Im touching my clit with vibrator. When I thought that my muscles are exhausted enough I added some pain.

I used clamps on my nipples, the ones with hardest squeez. I put them directly on my nipples so the pain was quite bad and excited. Because there was now a bigger pain then in my muscles, I could hold my legs longer, so I raised them up and instantly felt how my pussy is throbing and how orgasm is coming into my underbelly. Before I came my legs dropped on the floor. I took a quick break and then tried again, almost but I had to wait on third try that was succesful.

Now I should say why I like cumming like this from time to time. It is absolutely different then releasing myself in normal way. It is weak sensation compared to normal orgasm but its much longer, the sensation is coming in waves but not regularly and I can feel much more contractions. When I start to cum I usually ease my muscles and when I tight them I send a new wave of orgasm into my body. I continue like that until I cant go on or until I dont feel any pleasure, I usualy can keep cumming for about a minute, sometimes more. But Im not saying its minute long orgasm, as I said it is not so strong and it is in waves. Its something between pleasure that you feel masturbating and full orgasm. I cant really discribe it but its definitely worth it because its pretty unique.

After that I usualy just lie, breathing hard and feel happy but want more. Orgasms like this are not so relieving, I have quite a urge after that and I always cum again in normal way. Its the same feeling as ruined orgasm, except that ruined ones are pretty frustrating and not pleasurable at all.

Today my tummy hurts really bad, I couldnt even stand up from bed normal way I do in the morning. But well, it was worth it. When Im working out or stretching myself and I want to push myself really hard like this for example, I always use another pain, like clamps on nipples. I can definitely do more reps then or stretch myself more, because I ease the pain in muscles, do you think it is good or am I doing something really bad?

Also can you cum without using hands? Or do you have any special method like this? I would like to hear from you, in comments or on mail.

Have a nice day :)

Adventure 1

Hello,

this is first post of many in which I will focus on single things I actualized. I will try to be as detailed as possible but if you miss some information you are interested in, just leave me a comment and I will asnwer it for you. Today Im gonna write about dare that I created for web getdare.com, it involves nettles and lot of pain I hope, so here we go.

I wanted to do this dare yesterday but when I started to thing about it I kind of chickened out. I wanted to be sure that I will make myself to do it, so yesterday evening I had some long and intense teasing session. I woke up this morning really wet, I gave myself another edge and then I pulled my soaked panties back on. I decided that I will keep them for whole day.

After lunch I went to bathroom to shave myself because this dare involve some pussy play and I wasnt really smooth down there. When I did I was little mad at myself, because I actually made my skin more sensitive and that wasnt really desirable today, but I do stupid things when Im horny. I then changed into my sport shorts and shirt, took of my bra and keep on my sleeping panties. I took two clothepins, put them on my nipples and I was ready for a ride.

I setup 15 minutes on my phone and headed to the woods not so far from my house. I was really excited by this point. I was doing my best to keep high speed, even when I entered the woods. It was really a hot and sunny day today so I was sweating everywhere after a while. When my mobile started to bleep I was already exhausted after that 15 minutes sprint. I took a quick break and then I slowly continued looking for some nettles. My heart was beating so fast, but Im not sure if it was because of bike ride or excitement. I slowly rode deeper in the forest and I couldnt found anything, my nipples started to hurt when I slowed down and I was getting even more nervous.

I dont know for how long I was searching, but finally when I arrived on small logged area I found some big and fresh nettles there. I got off the bike, quickly checked if Im alone there and then I took of those clothepins. It was quite painfull but nothing I wouldnt expect, I massaged them a little, let the pain fade out. Then I pulled my shorts and panties to my knees, they were even more wet then before. It took me just few seconds to edge and big selfcontrol to stop masturbating. I pulled my cloth back and procced to next part.

When I found some young and really fresh nettles, those I thought will sting most, I remembered that I wanted to take some gloves with me. Well because Im stupid I had to solve the situation on place, so I again looked around to make sure Im alone there, and then I took off my shirt and use it as gloves. First of all I picked really big leaf and with holded breath I put them on my nipple. It wasnt first time for me to sting my nipples with nettles, but this time I was really sore. When nettle touched my skin it wasnt so bad, but when I squeezed it and put clothepin on it started to sting pretty bad. I quickly do the same with my second nipple.

After few moment my nipples where really itchy it was like thousand needles against my skin. I calmed down a little and then I collected some more nettles. I made a few smaller pieces and pulled my panties to my knees again, then I stuffed all the collected nettles in my panties. There was lot of green in there and it looked really painful. I started to fear, totally forgot about some pain on nipples. I pulled my panties about half way on my thighs and when I did that I touched some of the nettles with my skin. I stopped and started to masturbate again, I didnt want to edge just to make myself hornier. I was repeating to myself that If I dont pull my panties on I dont get to cum today. When I felt I can do it, I took a deep breath and quickly pulled my panties on.

It was horrible. Nettles attacked my exposed pussy like small pieces of glass but honestly, it wasnt so bad, I was preparing myself for more pain. The bad thing was that it sting nonstop, together with my nipples, so I will be in pain for more then 15 minutes. I pulled my shorts back on, picked up my sweaty and dirty shirt from ground and went to my bike. While walking the pain started to be more intense, nettles started to sting on every part of my crotch. My nipples where already burning and my pussy started slowly too. I knew that it will me much worse after few minutes judging by my previous experience with nettles.

I picked up my bike but when I sat on it I squeaked in pain. That was really a bad idea and I wasnt quite prepared for another, and much worse stinging. I was standing there for few moments with my pussy and nipples on fire, then I said to myself that I should go, or it will be unbearable until I come back home. I started to move, but without sitting. It didnt work, my legs were sore after few minutes and I was moving really slowly. Itching of my private parts transformed into painfull burning and I knew I had to clench my teeths and do it.

I sat on my bike and started to pedal. The pain get even more intense then before, I didnt feel stings anymore, just burning, more and more intense burning. I was moving really fast, doing my best, now the only pain I felt was on my pussy, my nipples was fine. It was like flame that starts in my crotch and move to my thighs and tummy, it started to feel really bad. When I left the forest and was like in trance. I was focusing just on the road to pedal as fast as I can and on this burning. I thought that it will stop to hurt after a while but I was wrong, it was still like flame in my panties and still so intense. I was getting really angry on myself, because it was really bad, I didnt feel my pussy at all sitting on my bike and from time to time when some nettle touched my clit I felt that.

I was finally home. I left my bike behind doors and ran to bathroom, took my shorts and shirt off. I went in bathtube on my knees and quickly pulled my panties off. Some nettles felt down burning my legs, but some stayed on my skin, I took of those ones with my bare hands. My crotch was red and my skin was covered with small pimples.There were also a lot of those little green balls everywhere, seeds or whatever that is, I tried to sweep them of my pussy with hand but when I touched it I almost cried out by another burning wave. After that I took of my clothepins and leaves there. It took couple of seconds and my nipples started to burn really badly. I instinctively started to rub my pussy and even tho it was still on fire it felt good.

It took me just few moments and I was cumming. The orgasm was strange, first of all I stopped feeling any pain and I felt my usual orgasm how I know it, but then after a while the burning came back and mixed with pleasure feelings. It was really a something new but it wasnt as much pleasurable as my other painfull orgasms.
When the orgasm was away everything started to hurt more, as usual. I found out that I burned my both legs with those nettles quite badly when I was cumming and that wasnt really want I wanted in the summer.

Luckely my skin on legs is not so sensitive so they are just a little bit red because I scratch them all the time, I hope it will be fine tommorow. My nipples are more or less ok too by now, again they are itchy a little so I have to scratch my boobs all the time, and its pretty weird. My pussy is still red and when I try to scratch my croth it hurts, so I have to hold it. I feel like having some disease right now. I hope that tommorow it will be better and I will be looking back on this idea with smile, but at the moment I have to say that I hate nettles !

Me any my fetish

Hello,

I was thinking about what exactly fetish is, and what should I include here and what not. Fetish is some item or situation that is not really linked with normal sexuality, for example you cant have a cock fetish. Atleast that is how I understand it. In this post I will make a list of everything that makes me wet instantly, in every situation and every mood, so not strictly fetish.

Feet and legs. I think that I cat say that I have a footfetish. I like skinny legs, no muscles, no fat.

Plain and innocent cloth. I enjoy having this on myself when I play, I feel like too vurnerable then. Basic and cheap white underwear, cheap shirt without sleeves, and plain white miniskirt, uhm that is the most sexy cloth in my opinion. Same goes for guys, I like them in plain cloth aswell.

Panties. I have really a huge panties fetish, but I dont like all of them. I can spend hours in a shop searching for panties that turns me on, and Im really horny wearing those. I dont know why I like some and not others, its just very spontaneus.

Small cloth. This is something I dont use in real life, but I have some smaller cloth then my size and I use it during play sometimes. I guess that the fact it enlace my body is turn on for me, like a cheap variant of latex cloth. I dont have enough money to buy latex, but I would like to try it someday.

Rope. One touch is enough for wetting my panties, I dont even have to be tied up, just feel rope on my skin.

Fear. It is actually turn on for me, watching horror movie or be alone at night naked outside.

Pain. Ofcourse.

Degradation.When I have more time to play I always fantasy about situation which Im into and it is always the same. Im kidnapped or something like that by someone and they force me to do things, rape me, torture me. The main point is that I fantasy about being holded against my will. Even tho I like what I do to myself, I fantasy about how I dont like it and someone is doing something horrible to me. This fantasy is big turn on to me.

Bare feet. It goes together with degradation and foot fetish. When I have more time for myself and I do bdsm for more then one day, Im always without shoes.

Orgasm denial and teasing. I thinkg this speakes for itself. Again this is important for longer play, because when Im cumming too much I lost my urge as my pussy gets sensitive, so Im always trying to hold myself horny.

Forced orgasm. Exactly the opposite. Being in bondage for three hours with dildo inside my pussy and vibe egg on my clit, ye... after sixth orgasm I beg myself to never try it again, but I do anyways. Downside of this is that I dont get horny for 3-4 days after that, so I use it only when I have a really kinky mood for it, or when I know I will dont have much time in upcoming days.

Physical effort. I dont know if its my fetish, someone told me in past that its a natural human effect, but anyway. When I do something really hard, workout, hard bondage pose or anything that tests endurance of my muscles, I get really horny. That is the reason I like to workout and it was probably reason for my earlier orgasms as child.

Sweat. I like it on my body, after a good bdsm seasson or after workout. Again, huge turn on, especialy during summer. I must try somewhen to be dirt and sweat for a long time, god this fantasy drives me crazy.

And I believe this is it.. ofcourse there are more and more things that turn me on, but they are not so powerful. As I said, just thinking about these things I wrote about adn my pussy is throbbing. I guess I will go for private play now.

Me and bondage

Hello,

now I will write something about bondage or I should better say selfbondage. Bondage is another important thing for me together with pain. In most cases I combine those two in most of my sessions. My first bondage experience was actually same as pain one, because I was using rope for inflicting pain to my legs back then. Anyway the most important bondage period I had when I was 12 years old. I always love bondage, but during this time I was totally obssesed with selfbondage.

It started slowly by tied up legs together, anckles, knees and thighs. After that I found out that I have a rope fetish, I tied my whole body in ropes, chest and tummy, rop thru my pussy but it still wasnt really strict or painfull and still with hands free.

After that I wanted to be a little bit more harsh on myself, so my bondage became more tight, I tied myself to door, bed or table but still with my hands free so I can do painfull stuff to myself during bondage. Big change came when I dared to tie my hands.

First just to try the feeling with rope and easy to untie. When I found out that I like it, I bough some chains and paddlocks and started to experimenting with strict selfbondage. I tried keys in icecubes, on the other end of long string or I left key far away in my house and I had to crawl for it. It was a great sensation beeing helpless and knowing that I cant untie myself until I got key but my bondage was still too plain. Tied legs, hands and thats it.

I started to tie myself in more complex bondage. Especially legs, every leg somewhat different, or I tied them in the air while lying on the ground. I started to tie myself really hard, so the bondage actually hurts. I was trying a full body bondage, including upper body, my knee to chest and other knee in air, positions I had a really hard time to crawl, my elbows tied together. And ye, I was in love with bondage, anyway after a while I got out of ideas, and it started to be same over again.

When I was about 14 or 15 I oriented myself more towards pain, and I used bondage strictly to hold myself in position, to add a helpless feeling to my torture. But when I was 16 years old I fell in love with hardtied, and general the most intense bondage or suspension. I wanted to try it so badly, I wanted to put my body in those tests and see how it will feel.

So I started to test, how bad is the pain when you are hanging in the air suspended by rope. It wasnt so painfull to my surprise so I tried my first season. Semi suspension by legs. I sat on the chair, tied my legs up in the air to wall bars and then put the chair away. I ended up lying on my back with my butt in the air. The bondage on my anckles was intense and I could feel how the rope is tightening into my skin. I was like in trance, my feet where blue after while, ofcourse because my knobs were bad ones for suspension and they tightened too much. So I untied myself and I knew that I want more.

Doing suspension in my room is very complicated, because I can tie myself only by wall. I did couple of more tests there, mainly learning new suspension knobs so they dont tighten up. I also searched what body parts should be tied and what not. I was ready, totally wanted to be freely in the air able to swing here and there without any wall touching my body. The only room in my house where I could did that was garage. It was horrible waiting for opportunity when my parents will go away for long enough. But it came one day.

First thing I planned to try was classic suspension by legs, chest and hips. I wanted to have hands free until I master that. I did it exactly how I wanted, was lying on garden table and when I was tied up I just slipped down. I was hanging there it could be few minutes, then the pressure on my chest started to be unbearable. It was great sensation, better then I expected, tho I had bruises on my chest for a week after.

My experimenting with suspension was slow, because I could only try that when I was home alone for a long time.I tried lot of positions, mastered how and what parts I should tied so I dont have bad bruises from that again. Sometimes I have ofcourse, but only after some really long and hard play. I found out that when I hang upside down by my legs I got sick easily, so I can do this position only couple of minutes, but that is more or less general for every suspension. I think that this is the top of selfbondage for me, atleast for now.

When I was sure with what Im doing, I started to tie my hands during suspension. It was like year ago, so I was practicing a lot. I didnt try to use chain and key, because I dont think that it is needed. Suspension isnt about strict bondage in my opinion. The most intense thing I did till now was last summer, when I tied myself by one anckle in the air, and to my other anckle I tied my hands. Before I tied my hands I turned on vibrator in my pussy and well.. it was the best orgasm in my whole life. I honestly never came so hard and it was really intense. Even tho that it was wonderfull feeling, I didnt dare to do it again since then. Dont know why, but Im a little bit scared, not because of something can happen to me, I know it cant, I trust myself in bondage, but it was just too intense for my body I guess. Im afraid that I will let go my feelings and I wouldnt be able to control myself.

That would be all about my bondage adventures :) in next post I will write about what get my panties soaked wet.

Me and pain

Hello,

I will write about pain today, the basic and my most favorite bdsm tool.

Pain was my very first kink, first thing I tried and first thing I dreamed about. It all started when I was really young, somewhere between my 7-8 year. I remember that I dreamed about some strange rollecoaster that moves really slowly and there are multiple tortures devices on the way. My favorite was the one that inflicts pain into my legs. I dont know if I have borned with this kink already but my legs are still my favorite part to torture.

I started really slowly back then, with some rubberbands around my anckles, rope around my legs nothing with bondage tho, the pain was important to me. Its hard for me to remember all I tried as its really a long time ago, but what I remember is my first orgasm. it was about when I was 9 years old. I tied my leg in the air to a chair and then did pushups. I holded my free leg on my tied one so the thighs were closely touching and after a while I felt some great feeling. I didnt know what it was but after a while of enjoying this sensation I reached the top of it, felt great pleasure all over my body and then felt on ground without any power left. I was doing this to myself really often, until I found out what is sex, orgasm and masturbation.

When I was between 9 and 10 year of my life, I already knew about sex thanks to my friends and internet. This was a period of kinky silence. I stopped doing pain to myself as I thought that I can have simliar sensation just from masturbation. Im really a orgasmic girl so I never had a problem to cum. Yes sometimes it took me three minutes sometimes twenty, but I can cum at the end everytime. I learned what turns me on, we had some sexualy experiments with my girl friend, I learned how I can have more orgasms then one and I remember how my friends were really jealous about that.

But the important thing happened whan I was about 12 years old maybe a little bit younger. I started to read on the internet about real bdsm, not just rubberbands on my legs and I knew that this is what I want. I remember how I saw a strictly and painfully tied girl and how I had three orgasms looking at that picture.

It went really fast back then, I used clothepins on my skin, everywhere, I tied my legs painfully together, I spanked my ass and my chest. I found a piece of wood in the garden that I used as a cane. But I was really gentle on myself, I never had a marks lasting for more then two hours. Actually I wasnt really into pain, clothepins, spanking and wax was enough for me, but it was a important period because I was practicing a lot of bondage, but there will be another post about that.

When I was about 14 years old I felt like I can tie myself in any position I want, so I started to want more pain. The techniques was still the same, I used various household items, but I used it either for spanking or whipping. What was different was intensity. I started to play for a longer times with myself, so I could take a lot more pain. When I was 14, I bruised myself for the first time and I liked it. I was looking into the mirror on my bruises every hour and I masturbated until my pussy was so sensitive that wearing panties hurts.

This experience gave me a new view on bdsm and on what I want. I limited selfbondage and I enjoyed pain alone. Till that moment I always was in bondage, and pain was as a guest to add more intensity. But that changed. I started to bruise myself more often, the usual spots were my ass, thighs, and chest. I started my sexual life with partner back then and those bruises where problem. We fortunately broke soon after, so he didnt have a time to found out the truth about me.

I was also trying some of the new things like nettles, hot or cold water, whipping with telephone cable that is still my most favorite whip tool since now. But more important then what I did to myself was which part I tortured. I never spanked or whipped my breasts or pussy, but when I turned 15 all these boundaries started to dissaper slowly. I remember my first pussy whipping as a most painfull but also wonderfull sensation. I started to use some weight on my nipples, this was the first time I actually teared a clothepin from my body, it was also great. I think that this year was a top of my painslut me because what I did till now I always enjoyed, I liked the pain as a new pleasure that I added to a sexual one.

When I started to push myself more I found out that I dont really enjoy harder play in the same way. I still liked it, but the pain wasnt pleasure at all, it was a pure pain. All this started with my new clamps that I bought. I couldnt stand them on my nipples for more then few seconds. The spanking was the same, when I tried to push myself behind this invisible limit, it started to hurt a lot more, like suddenly from intensity 5 to 10. I started to play with this new sensation, it was again absolutely different and I use it till now. Sometimes I want to add some pleasure so Im easy on myself, sometimes I want to feel pain so I wake up a masochist inside me.

When I was 17 years old I was obssesed with painfull bondage or hanging bondage. Again I limited a pure pain a little and started to use my ropes more. I tied myself so hard that I had a few days marks left on my body. I developed even a techniques how can I hang myself in the air alone, and Im still practicing and developing it till now. (by hanging I dont mean like by neck but suspension bondage)

I think that Im pushing myself and my limits still further, its slow now, but still pushing. When I was 19 years old I bleed during a play for the first time, not something serious, just a hard whipping. Im sure that I will push even more, no matter how bad it can sound, but the love for pain is inside me, and I dont really want to change it.

I kind of stopped searching new ideas on how to inflict pain to myself, like whipping, spanking, squeezing my skin, hot and cold is enough to me. I rather invest my time into searching a new ideas in humiliation and bondage.

Hope you had fun reading and see you soon in the next post, about bondage.

Me and humiliation

Hi there,

in my next four posts I will write about how I started being kinky and how I developed that inside me. I will start with humiliation, kink that I enjoy only for few years, then I will write about bondage, pain and fetishes in my next posts.

I already wrote about how I play alone, so I cant apply basic humiliation ideas, because there is nobody to watch, I cant feel humiliated in front of nobody but myself. So I developed ideas that perfectly suits me. I was thinking and trying a lot of humiliation things, and I still do. Im really a new into this part of bdsm because I still have a lot of ideas to push myself into.

When I first started to think about spicing up my bdsm life with some humiliation, I was thinking about things that I hate, that I dont like, my limits we can say. The very first humiliation thing I did was anal. I never liked it as an idea, and I dont like it till now. I believe that some girls can feel pleasure from anal, but not me. Anyway its a basic thing I do to myself when I want to feel humiliated.

Next idea that I use till now and that is really a strong one to me, is doing things in front of mirror. Just being tied up in front of mirror means something to me. I dont feel bad about being kinky, not that, but its a strange feeling and definitely not something I can easily get used to.

This was enough to me for a long time, but then I started to thing about more. I remember that when I was 17 I was trying my first enema or putting icecubes in my butt. I dont do icecubes anymore because during one session I used a sharp one that scratched something inside me and it wasnt nice experience.

Anyway the big revolution came when I turned 18. I started to be more daring and I wanted to try something I really hate, like I didnt enjoyed anal, but it wasnt so bad, I wanted to push myself more. I was really obssesed by ideas about putting myself in situations I was afraid of. First thing that I was trying was mess, or something disgusting in general. I was raised as a child in very clean home, my mom is cleaning whole house three times a week. I dont feel ok about drinking from anyone else glass or bottle, eating from same plate or using a public bathroom so Im really strict about sanity and using that in bdsm seems very sexy to me.

My first realy messy experience was during a rainy day. I tied my legs into a frogtie, my hands behind my back and I lied in the middle of mud. The rain was heavy so the mud was flying all around my body, head and I was pretty dirty after while. It was amazing new experience, I loved it so much. I was doing another dirty things in mud, or sand and I still do and I still love it.

Another messy thing that was hard limit to me till 18 is pissing. I was disgusted by this for whole my life until I actually tried it, and again, I felt in love with it. I dont need to pee on myself like every week, but when there is a good opportunity and mood for it, its wonderful. I started slowly by peeing thru my panties on my legs and then peeing in bath all over myself. Now I say that I like it, but not like that I enjoy peeing over myself, I enjoy the emberassement of situation, when I think about how Im lying in mud, dirty like animal, its a huge turn on.

Together with this I started to do some workout. I never was this kind of person that is going for airobic or gym but I started to be lazy about sports at my 18 and honestly I felt like getting more and more fat. I wanted to be in shape so the naked workout at home was great idea. I did that for a months, then I got lazy and had some pauses. When I discovered orgasm denial later I started to workout on schedule, because I have a rule now, when I dont workout I dont cum.

After that I started to do things in public, but secretly ofcourse, I dont have enough courage to be real life exhibitionist. I tried vibrators under my cloth, being tied under my cloth, or have clothepins on my sensitive parts. I got myself in situations where I couldnt stay the pain so I was taking off clothepins in a full bus, or I was turning off a vibe inside my panties. I have nice memories on that.

Then when I was about 19 years and half old I discovered denial and teasing. It is actually super humiliation to me, being unable to cum plus the idea that I do it to myself. I have pretty strong will so I never had a problem with that, I can even ruin my own orgasm. But I have to stay in resonable denial periods, because when I tease myself too much I usualy lost urge and the whole effect is gone. Anyway I was realy a orgasm slut back then, I remember cumming five times a day, so four days of denial was and still is something horrible to me. Even when I cum once per two days its not enough and I feel urge for most of the time. The best thing on longer denial is to be in public, feeling the wet in my panties, my pussy throbing and trying to act like nothing is happening in front of all those people.

When I started to be horny like that in public, I dared myself to try another things as well. One of the really humiliation things I did was kneeling in public bathroom and masturbating there or trying to wipe some of the water on the floor there with my tits. I tried to pee myself in public bathroom, so I have to be in public on my way home. I wear just skirt and panties back there, so my pee was just on my bare legs, but anyway.

When I was 20 and a half years old I again pushed myself with another more daring stuff. I started to do things outdoors, not in public area but in places where is possibility that someone can see or come. Being naked and tied in woods is still a huge turn on for me, its not so much humiliation tho but a fear of being seen. Same goes with my night adventures. Being naked in the middle of the night, trying to avoid cars and people is also great. Im basically using all of the things I learnt in past just not at home, or at my garden, and its really intense, sometimes too much but I dont do that really often. When I go out I plan it for long days before.

What I want to try in the near future? I want to push my limit in tasting my pussy juice and tasting my pee.
Another thing I have in my mind is to try be dirty. I will need a few days for myself, with really limitating bathroom. I will pee outside, I will be sporting and sweat myself, but dont wash and dont change clothes etc. Im really open to this fantasy last few days. I want also push my public limit, but I dont know if this happens anytime soon. I will maybe start slowly with some photos without head that I will leave in my town, or on the internet.

That would be all about humiliation, in the next post I will focus on pain.

Me and my second life

Hello,

in this post I want to focus on what bdsm means to me, how I see my life and how I do perverted things in my personal life.

About my life.
I live a pretty normal life as a student, my parents are great, I was in couple of relationships but only vanila. Im single at the moment and I dont feel like I need someone right now. I never met someone who was bdsm positive, my last boyfriend could understand it a little, but we decided after some time that I need more then vanila relationship with some fetish in bed, so we broke. It was for good because I started to feel that I dont enjoy vanila sex without any kind of bdsm.

I live in a small town with my parents. They live downstairs and I have whole upstairs for myself. As I said its a small town, forests are all around, and another closest town is about 5 kilometers far away. My parents like to travel a lot, so I have really a lot of possibilities to play. Another place I like is our cottage. Its about 3 hours away by car from my home, and its pretty much in suclusion area. Another great thing is that I dont know anybody there and they dont know me in case of, you know, something. Anyway as you can see I have a lot of oportunities to be alone and save.

So as I said, I live a pretty normal life, where Im a shy girl. But when Im alone I do pretty wild things. I think that its inside me, because I liked pain and pretty uncommon things as a 7 years old girl. Since then I practice those things on myself without any partner so far. A lot of people told me multiple times to find someone, that its better and so on, but Im still not sure. I would like to try it with partner, but on the other hand I would miss to do things alone. The point is that Im not a 100% slave or submissive, my fantasies are somewhere else a little bit. I dont feel any pleasure from being a good girl, from making my master happy or from him being something more then me. I have pleasure from pain alone, from frustration during bondage or from fear if I will be able to untie myself or not, the idea that there is nobody who can untie me or help me is super exciting to me. When I find partner for bdsm it surely cant be a pure dominant but someone who likes it same way as I do. Another thing is that I do it mainly for sexual pleasure. When I was talking with other girls I was suprised that lot of them like it because of that humiliation and because someone is on top of them.

I just like to plan a scenario for myself, so I know whats in front of me, I can change the intensity, but when I jump right in I know that I cant really do anything about that. I already was thru a lot of my crazy ideas where I would scream safeword on my partner, but when there is nobody but me, I must do it and when its behind me I totally love it. Then there is my imagination. When Im playing alone I can go really deep, stop thinking about anything else, no talking, no thinking, that would be really different with partner. As I promised I will be more detailed, this was just briefly about how I do things, why I like bdsm and what possibilities I have in my life. Sometimes I feel like living a schizo life, but I guess I cant help it. And I dont even want to change it. I like this perverted me and it will be part of my life forever.

I hope you can understand me atleast a little bit more from what I wrote, because I have a really hard time expressing this part of me and why I like to play with myself. If there are any questions I will be happy to answer them.

Hello world

Hi there,

My first post, so exciting. Im just sitting here in my room, with my legs tied up, with some clothepins and clamps all over my body and after a looong teasing and edging session. I decided that before I let myself taste orgasm I will write this, right now, in pain. In this very first post I want to answer three basic questions about this blog. Who am I, what I like and why I started this blog.


Who is Lucie?

Im a 21 years old girl living in the Czech Republic. Im about to finnish second year on university of art and in the future Im going to be a teacher, I hope. My hobbies are art, tennis, riding a bike and bdsm ofcourse.

Now briefly about my sexual life. I like pain since I was a little girl, quite a long time before I even know what sex is. I started to masturbate when I was 12-13 and I link this addiction with pain since I can remember. I was happy with that situation for good 3 years, ofcourse I pushed myself quite quickly and I was doing a lot harder stuff then years ago, but when I was about 16 I started to feel that pain is just not enough. I started to do more perverted stuff then before, it just wasnt a pure pain anymore. I was excited about being forced to something. That was the period when I started to be active on online chats. I was searching for people that can force me to do things via internet, but it wasnt what I expected. I even searched for a real people, but again with no luck, only creeps.

So It was only me and myself again. I tried a lot of new things, even those one I would never even think about year ago. I was exploring this new world for about 2 years. When I turned 18 I bought my very first sexual toys, vibrator and vibe egg. I was really obsessed by this new toys. I remember that I practiced selfbondage every evening with those toys forcing my poor pussy to cum again and again. When I was about 19 another important thing came into my life. I started to go deep into denial and teasing. I cant imagine that I practice bdsm without it now. I was doing more perverted things, harder selfbondage, harder torture, longer denial and Im sure I still have  a lot of space before I find my boundaries.

So what I like today?

I love pain, everywhere on my body, depends on intensity as a pleasure or as a punishement. My limit is blood, but I break this limit time to time while spanking or whipping myself.
I love to be humiliated but in private. I like the idea of being in mess, not really experienced in that yet. I would like to push my exhibition boundaries this summer. I have yet a lot of things to push in humiliation category.
In case of bondage I like everything. Im total rope whore. I dont really like chains tho.
This is just briefly written, I will focus on this topic in my next posts.

And last, most important thing.
Why I started this blog? I was chatting with some new and great people last few months and they really loved what Im doing so I thoutgh that I can open to wider public. I like to write about myself, because even tho Im really shy in real life, there is a exhibitionist inside me. I just love the idea that I share my adventures with another strangers on the internet.

Another thing is that when you meet someone new, it tooks weeks and hours of writing before you can be sure that she / he looks on sexual life similar to you. I plan to write a lot here, about what I like, what I want to try and what I hate. I want to find people with similar likes, so we can talk about it then maybe.

And last thing is that I hope to be in touch with regular visitors after some time. I plan to let you decide how long I should stay tied up, or how hard should I be on myself. I want visitors to feel like part of my adventures especially in longer sessions, even days long.

Lets see how it will work :)